So far away...
Have you ever had that feeling that you're dead? It feels like life is a million miles away and I'm not alive...I'm just HERE. I don't feel connected to anything. It's not isolated...It's just...Not a part. I don't know if that makes any sense. It's kind of a scary feeling, to be truthful. Today, on the phone with my best friend, I was hearing everything she said...But...It was almost as though it was in a different langauge. None of it meant anything to me. Nothing means anything to me right now...I look in the mirror...And I see me...But...It's not me. I can't scrutinize the image in the mirror for flaws and imperfections like I can myself. I can't look at hder. She means nothing to me. None of my life means anything to me. I don't even want to cut...It's not worth it. Nothing is worth it. If it weren't an automatic reflex I wouldn't breathe. I'm not sure if this is an improvement or another step back..
