As much as I would like to pretend that I'm special, that I have an amazing life ahead of me, that someday I'm going to be somebody big...I can't. I'm nothing but another ordinary girl. I've got so many stereotypical issues that I just want to fucking shave my hair of and scream I AM NOT LIKE YOU! Because I hate other people so much that I'd rather die than be like them. Though it's generally true that we hate in others what we dislike in ourselves. I dislike stupidity, laziness, ineptitude, meaness, loudness....Am I these things? Lately it seems so. Not lazy, persay, but my brain just stops working...Literally, I can't think at all. Maybe it's because I'm so distracted because of everything going on in my life. I really need to get far, far away from all this. The break up with Jordan completely threw me off, my flirting fling with Demon is over, so once again I am left alone.