I cry through my skin.

 Wow...The weekend really really really sucked. She wouldn't talk about anything but the hospital and what was wrong with her...She claimed everything she ate was a 'binge' she kept saying how fat and ugly she was and she didn't even like rides at the theme part. I don't know why I had a crush on her before...And I feel so mean for not liking her...But she just kept telling me how bad she was with her anorexia and her cutting and how I shouldn't even be self concious about my scars because they're nothing compared to hers and GARGH! And worse...She tried to make out with me. That was one of the most awkward things that has ever happened to me. But yeah...After she went home today...My best friend and I hung out. We just went down to our spot and played in the creek, then we did put facial maks on eachother(we're idiots...lol) and she said something that made me happy. She told me that I look absolutely gorgeous and that anyone would be lucky to have me. I know it's a lie...But, still...It's a nice one. I guess I'm not so depressed right now...I just feel alone. It doesn't bother me though...I guess I'm used to feeling alone.