I cry through my skin.

Mood: Ugly and depressed
Listening to: Old school Degrassi

 I feel like such a complete loser...Not only am I home on Friday, but  I had to turn down a date. Mom had to go stay up with Aunt Patty(dying aunt) because she's having psychotic attacks again. I don't know why the medicine they give her has that effect on her. I also don't understand why on Earth they have to give her medicine that will make her react that way. Maybe it helps the cancer...I doubt it though. There has yet to be a cure for it. Doping her up on the same drugs that you doped up the last person with cancer won't cure her this time any more than it did the last person. I don't know...Today I find out that one of the homophobes from the other day is spreading sh**(dare to think what those two stars stand for?) about me and my girlfriend. Apparantly I've been caught making out with three different girls...One of which is a vampire. I have had one relationship my entire life, and I'm not the type of person to just hook-up...Even if it is just kissing. Oh, and I'm really fat. I can't tell you how much that set me back...I'd finally given up purging...Now, I've taken it back up. I know it's stupid, but...Everyone still thinks I'm fat. I keep trying so hard though! I just stopped throwing up...The blood was kind of a bad sign. I just doubled my exersize routine. Still...I'm fat. So, now, one step forward...Two steps back.