Screwed for life.
Mood: Depressed
Guess who had a terirable day? The same person that always has a terriable day. And guess who screwed herself over royally? The same person that always screws herself over royally!! Allow me to explain though...Yesterday, I asked Skye if she was doing drugs because people have been talking a lot lately and I had to know. She wasn't and she got really upset about it. So blah, blah we made up about it and we were on the same page until lunchtime...We were talking to her friend Kaddie and then Kaddie started talking about how Skye was hooking her up...Which Skye thinks I don't know about. I love it when people think I'm stupid...Just because I turn the blinde eye doesn't mean jack sh*t. THen I switched out...And the next thing I know Skye is storming off the other way and calling me a whore. Needless to say, that pushed me over the edge. Now here's the part where I royally screw myself over, Fumes(alter of mine) talks to me and tells me that Skye broke up with me...And that it's all my fault. So, I go into a bathroom stall...Write my suicide note...Cut open my left wrist...THen some girls come into the bathroom and I quickly hide my boxcutter(I always carry a boxcutter around with me...) and then Skye comes into the bathroom and calls for me. I stay quiet, of course, but she looks over the stall walls and sees me.So then we talk...And she tells me I have to decide what we're going to do in our relationship...So...THe bell rings and I spend the next period bleeding from my self inflicted wound and crying but trying badly to hide it. So, yeah, long story short...Skye and I are still together but I have a cut wrist that I'm really not sure how to hide because I had every intention to die so I didn't bother making it light and easy to just cover up.So yeah, I'm screwed...I have a cut on my wrist that no one can know about....But, I still have a relationship. For now...
