Mood: Sad...Disapointed...
Listening to: Dishes clanking.
Well, today hasnt been generally good. Third period, some girls in gym gave me sh*t about my girlfriend talking about sex. They kept saying stuff like "If you don't make her stop I'm gonna kick your ass." I was just like O.O!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's not like she was talking about what
we do...Or don't do. Then this girl who I thought was my friend said that Skye was only lesbian because a guy cheated on her and she stilll liked guys and wanted to be with guys. I started to cry then...She has no clue how much hearing that sort of stuff hurts me. She has no clue how many times I've thought the same exact thing and wondered if in the long run I'm getting my heart torn to shreds all over again. That's why for so long I kept everyone out...I didn't want to get hurt...I wouldn't let people in to see what's inside. Finally, I meet Skye and I let her in...The first person in such a long time...Then this girl comes and says that...I don't know why either. But, apparantly one of alters talked to Skye about it...(RAWR!) and the girl was lying. I really don't know who to believe in this situation. Would Skye admitt it if she stilled like guys and was only with me because one cheated on her? Or would the girl who I thought was my friend lie to me and hurt me in the only way that I allow people to hurt me anymore? So, yeah, Skye and I are kind of in a little spat about it...Then today is doomsday. The final decesion whether she's going to Bootcamp or not...And when. I was supossed to go to my friend's house after school today...But my mum went all psycho beetch mode one me and wouldn't let me go. I really don't know what I did to make people treat me the way they do...Or why everyone hates me so much. I wish they didn't...But, if wishes were fishes the sea would be full. That didn't help. Dang optimism. Oh, yeah, my Biology teacher talked to me about my homework...Apparantly I'm not turning it in enough. I'm trying! So VERY hard...I just forget it on my nightstand a lot...Or lose it in my bookbag.
