I cry through my skin.

Mood: Borderline...

 That's it. I officially suck. No wonder I got dumped. Everyone around me has lovers....Even those who just broke up. Why am I so different?!?!?! Why can't I just find someone to love who loves me back? Am I that ugly? That fat? That stupid? Am I just that type of girl? I'm going to grow old and ugly alone in a stupid house that has an ugly tree in the back yard. I don't know WHY I added the ugly tree bit...But that's the one thing I absolutely always refused to have at any house I live in. But, nope, with my luck...That's exactly what's going to happen. And I'll die alone from a heartattack because I'm so flippin' obese and they keep shoving food down my throat that I can throw back up or I'll end up in the stupid mental place again. I hate my stupid effing life. God hates me. I did something terriable to offend every deity on the face of the universe and now they are all punishing me for it at the same time. I should just give them all my blood now and get it over with. Screw living...Screw love. Screw everything. This isn't worth dealing with for the supossed better tomorrow that I keep hearing about.