I cry through my skin.

 Again...I'm faced with the choosing dilemia. I really like this one boy...His name is Kyle...We seem to click really well...But then I'm dating Gustavo...And nothing is going on with him whatsoever. I don't even know if he likes me...At least not like that. I really want to date Kyle...I really like him...But I don't even know if he likes me. I don't know if he would want to date me even if he did. I know I should stay with Gustavo, that's what my head tells me. My heart tells me to try Kyle...Try a boy that will give you more than a typical relationship. He's such a sweet guy...Kyle is. But Gustavo is too. Gustavo is a nice, patient guy. He's very steady, very focused, and very...Detachted. He seems to go through the motions of being in a relationship without actually being in a relationship. I don't know...I just wish I knew what to do. If I break up with Gustavo...Would anything change? He'd hate me. I know that much for sure. And I don't know if Kyle likes me. JESUS BLOODY CHRIST! I want to cry...Kyle gets me...But he said he doesn't like highschool girls...I'm a highschool girl...But then again he seemed to be flirting. I don't know, I wish I did know. I wish I knew what to do. I know they tell me...Follow my heart...But sometimes my heart just ends up getting trashed. And I don't even know Kyle that well..He probably likes our friend Mykael better. She's the one who he usually talks to. I don't know...I really wish I did. Please, God or whatever, PLEASE tell me...Show me what to do.