Mood: Sad, lonely
I had a pretty good day at school...A few of my friends are coming to my birthday party on Friday. I can't believe I'm going to be sixteen tomorrow...I don't feel sixteen at all. I feel maybe five. The meds aren't working...And they're hurting my stomache. At least, I assume it's the meds. The other day someone was telling me that I wouldn't be able to tell if the meds were working...I wouldn't feel happy, or even necessarily better, I'd just feel less. I don't feel less at all...I feel like the same stupid girl I've been for a long time now.
My friend died yesterday. That wasn't happy. I mean, I knew she was going to...And it was for the better...I just hate death...And I hate losing people. I know this is going to sound stupid...But when someone's dead...They're gone. You never get to see them again. I think that's why people cry when someone they love dies...It's because they're gone and they start to miss them.
I guess I'm just stuck in my ordinary everyday. Stupid, depressed, me.
