I cry through my skin.

 Why is it I thought I'd put Skye behind me? Why is it I thought that I could just turn off the pain whenever I felt like? This girl who's in a insane asylum asked me about her...And I just started crying. I'm not over her...I really miss her. I don't know why I still want her! I don't know what I makes it so impossiable for me to let go. I want to put a bullet through my heart to stop this fucking emotion called love!!! I DON'T WANT TO FEEL ANYTHING!!!!!!!! I  want to lie cold and dead six feet under...I want to stand outside my body and watch all my blood seep into the carpet.  I hate life...There is no point to it. What is life? Life is one big hurt after another and then you die and you feel nothing. I'd rather just hit the stupid fast forward button and feel NOTHING! I want nothing!!! Strike me dead, God. Take me here and now...There is nothing on this hunk of rock for me.