Jebus!!!
Men. Are. Maddening. I went out with Ken last night, had a great time...I think I told you about this...But then I talked with Thomas...I figured I better find out if he's cool if Ken and I have a thing going on...For a while he was nonchalant about it and doing the whole no comment bit...Then I got kind of mad and blew up and said that I still like him and I don't want to hurt him but if he didn't care then I wanted to find someone who does. Then he responded that he did care, but I should do whatever I want. You know...That's really the only thing I wanted to hear from him...I wanted him to tell me that he cares. But...If he wants me to do what I want, does that me he hardly cares? Or that he cares so much that he wants me to do whatever makes me happy? And I wish I knew who to go with...Audrey says I should go with Ken...He's textbook the better guy. I already know this...He's sweet, easy going, sensitive, insane, and genius. But he doesn't give me that feeling...The special one. What happens if I do choose? What if I choose the wrong one? I can't exactly go back and ask the other one to be mine...Thomas and Ken are close friends and they know about eachother. ARGHHHHH!!!!! I'm so confused.
