It All Finally Fell Apart.
On Valentines day nonetheless. Jordan got arrested today, while we were housesitting. Let me explain everything.
Last night we were going to do thizz, but eventually decided it was a bad idea. After we decided it was a bad idea...Jordan's brother called mad as Hell. Telling Jordan to be home at 10 in the morning. Jordan didn't want to go home at 10 this morning...So he fought his brother tooth and nail. Which escalated...Escalated...Now his entire family hates me...And he's in jail. This is all my fault...It really is...I fucking hate myself. I'm turning in my two weeks at Longs as soon as I get rid of my truck...As soon as I get rid of my finacial obligations...And then I'm going to focus on getting the Hell out of here.
I was hysterical earlier...Now nothing seems real...Nothing seems like it can hurt me...Touch me...It's all fake. The only thing that's real is the emtpiness inside of me right now. And I hate my fucking life. I know that there are going to be more reprecussions for what I've done...Tiffany is probably going to rip me a new asshole when she gets home...I don't fucking care. I really, honestly, truely, don't. All I care about is getting my boyfriend back and getting the fuck out of here. I've lost everything that's mattered to me in a matter of days...There's nothing anyone can do to make it better.
