I cry through my skin.

 I think I'm really and truely over Skye. I saw her today...And...It kind of hurt...But not in the present, if that makes sense. It was like Old Kat wanted to relive the past. But...I don't think I do anymore. I really just want to move on. Last night...I didn't think I did. Last night...I stayed awake for hours just crying because I ruined the( what at the time felt like) only good relationship I'll ever have.I think it was a good thing...The relationship, that is. But...It's really time to let go and move on. I thought I was dping that already...But no, not really. I was waiting for her to come back. I think I'm really ready to move on...Who knows what waits for me next? Maybe a new love...Maybe I'm just going to be single for a while...But...I'm ready for the next step. It sounds silly now...But last night, I was so devoured by feelings of absolute desolution and pain that I told my Goddess that if I was supossed to live I couldn't do it without something good. Skye wasn't good for the present...But, she was something good from the past...Maybe that's a sign that there might be more good in the future. I'm kind of numb right now...Emotionally that is. I'm not sure if I have hope back or not...But right now, I'm willing to wait for life to play itself out.