Because all my tears are gone. There's a gaping hole in my chest, and it hurts. A lot. I still miss Jordan...How stupid and pathetic am I? I would still leap at the chance to be with him, though he told me yesterday that he's already fooling around with a girl that he always told me that I didn't have to worry over. I suposse it doesn't matter, he and I are very over.
I'm trying to put things together again. I don't have Annie, she's off being in love...She never wants to hang out unless her fiancee is doing something else. She was complaining to me the other day how she has an amazing love life but no friends. Friends require maintainence, dear, we can't be put on hold forever. Skitzo, Tweek, and Saido might all be moving to Arizona, which means I'd be losing my best friends all over again. Hopefully I'm moving out of my mom's soon though...Tiff, her fiance, and I are all hopefully going to get an apartment together...Two bedroom, pets allowed, hopefully two bathroom but we'll manage if not.
I'm just going through the motions of living right now...All I can focus on is the pain inside. That's all that's real.