Hope eludes me...
But I don't think it matters. I don't really think hope is anything anymore. Why hope? It only brings disappointment. I hoped for a love that would be okay...But, no. I can't have love...Because I want it. I hoped to be pretty and thin...I'm huge and hideous. I hoped for things to just get better....They just don't! I give up on hope...I can't even hope to die because I never do...I never die...*Sigh* All hope is gone...All I can do is wait.
