I cry through my skin.

Mood: Restless, Unhappy, PMS-y
Listening to: The refridgerator humming.

 I hate being a woman. I hate my period(sorry to any guys reading this). I got it twice last month...And then again this month! What did I do to deserve that?! Is this some weird sign that I have too many hormones and a surplus of blood? Sorry, I'm cranky. Holidays frazzle me more than usual. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving...What am I thankful for? I'm actually thankful for a lot of things...More than I let on. I'm thankful for all my friends who have stuck by me through Hell and back, I'm thankful for my lover who has waited patiently for me to sort through my sh*t, endured my bouts of cold unpentrable and completly random moodswings, and still loved me through it all and not pushed me to do things I'm uncomfertable with. I'm thankful that I'm left alone enough to be what I am and society will no longer imprison me for that, I'm thankful for the times that I am in good health and the people around me are as well, I'm also thankful that despite my stupid habits(the not eating, the purging when I do eat, the over-excersizing, the cutting...All that good stuff.) that I'm still strong enough and well enough to do things like normal people. Maybe those are little things...But they mean the world to me. Honestly they do.

 Today I found a new way to use alllllll the time that vacation is giving me to work against the fat that encases my entire body. For every chapter of a book I read I have to mutiply the last number of the chapter times the number of the pages in the chapter and do that many sit ups(IE chapter 18, 11 pages=88 situps). So far I suppose I've only done around 500 situps. The day is young...And I have 3 3/4s more books to read. Hmm...I wonder if this goes under beneficial or destructive? I don't care either way...And anyone who says anything about it to me will probably be rewarded with an attack of PMS induced rage. Maybe I should drink milk...I really want to go see the new HP movie...Despite the fact that HP makes me want to break things. Honestly? I just want to get away from my thoughts. Reading doesn't do that...Nor does excersize...Nothing on TV catches my atentions...And HP movie is full of fake magic and cheap computer graphics!! Who doesn't want to pay $10 to see that?! Happy Thanksgiving all...Remember what you're thankful for:)