Give up
I give up. I'm going to take my stupid pills again. Maybe they'll make me oblivious, maybe they'll dull my mind until I no longer feel the complusion to think, maybe...Just maybe...Maybe they'll help. I don't know, I really don't, but I can't take this anymore. I can't take life anymore. I can't take being fine one minute, wanting to punch someone's front teeth out the next and then be a quivering blob of sobs after that. I just can't handle all this! I want to curl up into a little ball and DIE. I don't want life, I don't want any of this...I just want the world to see the little white flag that I'm waving and leave me to the tattered ruins of what used to be me.
