I cry through my skin.

Mood: Sad and nervous
Listening to: Video games.

 Later tonight I am going to a gay pride thingymabobber. I really don't want to go, I'm terriably shy and I'm worried that people will think that I don't belong or that I'm stupid because I say I'm bi. Yeah, I say I'm bi because I can't admit to my lover that I'm full-fledged lesbian. I don't know why...I just can't.:-\. Today there was a school pep rally for Homecoming. Why on Earth would you hold a pep rally for an event that's happening on Saturday on Wensday? That's what I want to know! I didn't like it...It was loud, crouded, and full of school spirit. Call me a stereo-typical teen...But I can't stand school spirit. At lunch some guy came up to Skye and me and punched us because we didn't move...Not fun...Then I had a relapse in depression. I suddenly couldn't take it anymore and just started crying and telling myself that I was going to kill myself. I'm better now, at least I'm not wanting to go slit my wrists...I just don't know what happened...It's scary when I get like that...The absolute desolation just seeps in and takes over everything and manipulates my thoughts. Oh, but Skye and I are definantly going to Homecoming together this Saturday. Sounds like fun...Hopefully it will be.