Fuck
You know what it's like when something you've been looking forward to goes awry because of something so trivial and stupid? Yeah, tonight is off because Audrey and I got into a big fight over me calling her obvlious, naive, and young. I know I shouldn't have, it was wrong of me, but I'm getting so sick of her thinking she knows everything! She says she doesn't presume to know everything, but she presumes to know more than she does. She has no clue about people...She makes it so she can't see when she needs to drop stuff, when she's pushing too hard, she can't tell when people are getting irritated, and she NEVER knows what she did wrong. She's always the innocent victum. She also can't seem to finish anything that doesn't directly benefit her, even when she says she'll do it she just doesn't and she doesn't get why people are put out by it. And just the way she looks at how her life is going to be...She always sure that she's so right about how everything is going to go...It's all going to be like a movie...She's poor and struggeling in the begining but then someone recognizes her talent and absolute amazingness and then things start getting better and better until she has everything she ever wanted and needed. I know she's my best friend...And I should keep my comments to myself...But for some reason I just couldn't. And then she yells at me and starts pulling out shit that she has no fucking clue what she's talking about. I'm not oblivious to people...I know where their lines are, where their buttons are, but just because I can't see that they give a damn about me doesn't mean jack shit. It's not like it's something so out there to say that people don't care about me...Look at what happens when I tell my best friend she's not as great as she thinks she is. And then she had to fucking push me on a day that was already pure shit. I know, no excuse Kat, you're a stuipid bitch Kat, you should learn to keep your obese mouth shut Kat...Problem being...I don't give a damn. Right now all I want to do is cry and cut and go off and kill myself and there's no reason why I shouldn't.
