I cry through my skin.

 I am a fat pig! I HATE MYSELF! I'm ugly, no wonder no one likes me...No wonder all my real loves have broken up with me. Why do I have to be fat? Why is it even if I only have 300 or 400 calories I feel gluttenous and like I need to shoot myself? I hate myself so much right now...I really do...I need to cut or smoke or jump off a bridge or something....