Eck...Ex.
I'm over her...I know that much for sure. I don't love her...I'm not in love with her...I don't even particularly like her(although I wouldn't want her bludgened to death so I guess I don't particularly dislike her either?) so why does it still hurt me every time we talk? Why do tears still fill my eyes and why do I want to go get hit by a semi just because that seems like it'd feel better? Skye emailed me today. She's got a new girlfriend...I'm really happy for her...I still wish her all the happiness in the world...So what the Hell am I feeling? I have a boyfriend...One that I love, that I'm in love with and one that I know really cares about me...I don't even want Skye back...I don't want her in my life...I don't even want to TALK to her! I can't say what I'm feeling...Because I don't know. Maybe I'm jealous? Not of the new girlfriend...No. That Skye might get that really deept love connection with someone else. That makes it sound like I miss her...I really don't. I miss what we had...If that makes sense. What we had was...Secure. It was absolutely sure. I was passionatly in love with her, she was pasisonatly in love with me...We wanted eachother more than anything else in the world and it was forever. That's the only thing I miss. It's not even that I want that with Ken...It wouldn't be right for his and my relationship...At least, not right now. Forever isn't something he seems to want...And things are just to hectic to be certain about it. That's okay though...I'm actually pretty happy with whatever he and I do have.
