I cry through my skin.

 Jesus that was a mess....The whole get a boyfriend and dump him within a few hours of eachother thing...Yeah...Kind of breeds drama. But I did it for a good reason...My really good friend likes him and it's always friends first with me...Friends are always there for me, but love always goes away. I've learned by now to keep my friends closer to my heart than my lovers....When I don't, bad things happen. Today he seemed sad about it though...He said he didn't want to date the other girl and kept hugging on me and trying to get me to go off in private with him. I feel bad...Really bad...But it just wouldn't work. I'd never be able to forgive myself for hurting a friend. I'm just so glad to be getting away from school for a week. I promised myself I wouldn't give into the highschool drama...It all seems so stupid to me. I mean, I see the way things SHOULD be...And I know other people see the way things should be too...But they make such a big friggin deal getting there that by the time all the dust has settled things have changed again and it's not right anymore. I know I'm guitly of this too...Where, when, and in what circumstance...I have no clue! But I've done it.
 Today wasn't the best of days...I had a geometry test, a history quiz, an English quiz, had to reperform my play again and AGAIN people forgot their friggin' lines! And everyone keeps telling me date Gustavo Kat! He likes you so much Kat! You two are so cute together Kat! But I just don't feel for him that way really...He's a sweet guy, he really is, and he's fun to be with...But 9 times out of 10 the girl falls for the wrong boy...And there just isn't any of that type of chemistry with us.