I cry through my skin.

 Jesus that was a mess....The whole get a boyfriend and dump him within a few hours of eachother thing...Yeah...Kind of breeds drama. But I did it for a good reason...My really good friend likes him and it's always friends first with me...Friends are always there for me, but love always goes away. I've learned by now to keep my friends closer to my heart than my lovers....When I don't, bad things happen. Today he seemed sad about it though...He said he didn't want to date the other girl and kept hugging on me and trying to get me to go off in private with him. I feel bad...Really bad...But it just wouldn't work. I'd never be able to forgive myself for hurting a friend. I'm just so glad to be getting away from school for a week. I promised myself I wouldn't give into the highschool drama...It all seems so stupid to me. I mean, I see the way things SHOULD be...And I know other people see the way things should be too...But they make such a big friggin deal getting there that by the time all the dust has settled things have changed again and it's not right anymore. I know I'm guitly of this too...Where, when, and in what circumstance...I