Mood: Depressed, borderline suicidal.
Listening to: Eminem-Lose yourself on MTV2
Why do people wear hoods over their hands? And why do they make happy little rap songs in hopes of raising people's self esteeme and then put these stereotypical barbies in the music videos? I'm feeling contemplative this week...My kitty cat scratched up my finger and it hurts.*Cry* My friend Ian got me in trouble with Skye today...I was trying to hug him because I'm the most affectionate girl ever born into existance(I know, I've said I'm unaffectionate but it varies with my moods) and then Skye came up and Ian was like "SHE WAS HITTING ON ME!!" Then, of course, Skye believed it and got upset. Like I would!!!! I'm as faithful as they come...I've never even looked at anyone else!! It hurts me that she would believe anyting else. We smoothed it over in about 2 minutes though...And, I found out something semi-interesting. This girl who I was convinced was plotting my death and hated the ground I stepped on really doesn't. Hmm...Someone doesn't hate me. Shock. I'm feeling so very pessemistic this week. I don't think it's going to be good a week. I hate the way people look at me every single time I say something...It's like I'm speaking a different a langauge and I have two heads. Why is that? Did everything I say suddenly become so absurd people have to stare? I don't know...I guess I'm just depressed today. I wish my mood would lift back up...You can't miss what you never knew...Hypothetically...So I wish I'd never had a happy moment in my life. I know, it's terriable but if you've never been happy and you don't know what happy is technically you can't be sad. I don't really wish I'd never had a happy moment in my life...I just wish depression didn't dominate everything. Remember this boys and girls:Drugs, suicide, and alcohol are not the answer. What the media neglects to inform us, however, is what the answer is. Just suddenly be happy? Right. The media doesn't suffer from depression. I've tried alcohol and suicide...They haven't worked which is the reason why I'm assuming drugs don't as well. Well, if anyone out there HAS the answer and cares to share it with a depressed girl in California...I'd be much oblidged.
