I cry through my skin.

Mood: Beyond describable depression

 I seriously have no clue what just happened...But all of the sudden I'm crying and I don't know why. I hate crying! Crying is for babies! I'm not a baby...Far from it...I'm such a hypocrit though. I tell my loved ones it's fine to cry and that it's good for them...And then I go around and tell myself that crying makes me weak and is a horriable thing to do. I hate bitter salty tears though...And I hate the absolute feeling of desolation that comes with crying. I just want to lay down and die.