I cry through my skin.

Mood: Longing...Lonely...Depressed.
Listening to: Stupid Anime.

 Blah, depression...Depression...Depression. Skye called me today...She's at her Dad's. We were talking...And I told her about how I'm coughing up bloood and told her I couldn't kiss her and I think it hurt her feelings...She got really sad and was saying things like please baby...I don't care. It was really depressing...It made me want to cry. I don't want to hurt her...I just don't want to get her sick. I'm not sure how bad coughing up blood is...And it might have something to do with my purging habits/anorexic habits...But...Still...I'm not entirely sure. Last night I found a new way to make myself feel better without breaking any rules...I can't tell anyone...Because if Skye finds out she'll make it against the rules. So, yeah, I feel better today because of it.At least I'm not quite so ready to kill myself...I wish I wasn't sick though...Because, believe it or not...I like kissing my girlfriend