I saw Jordan yesterday...Well, Tuesday since now it's Thursday. It fucking sucked. I flipped out and starting crying hysterically and I wanted to go home but I couldn't. God I was stupid to think that I was strong enough to be able to see him. And now it's like we broke up all over again. I don't want to see anyone. I don't want to talk to anyone. I don't want to date anyone. I just want to sit here and be sad on life and cut myself. Yep. Sounds like a plan.
And everyone just keeps fucking pushing my buttons. Mom won't buy food so I can feel myself getting pissy off of that. Annie is fine with her boyfriend, excuse me FIANCE, one second and then fighting with him next and it is absolutely imparitive that she goes to see him. My friends are all distant and cranky...I fucking hate people! Everyone! I want a new boyfriend...So I can forget. But I know that's not what I should have a boyfriend for. I hate everything.