Mood: Betrayed, angry, hurt, worried
I am in so much fucking shit. My fucking best friend ratted me out! I told her not to get the fucking alcohol...I told her not to steal it...I told her we shouldn't drink...I even told her I didn't feel like drinking. If her Dad says anything, I am in so much fucking shit. I'm never going to be allowed out of the house again. I want to just kill myself now...I don't want to deal with that shit. I'd rather die than deal with everything that has to deal with. i hate myself...But I'm pissed at my best friend...You're not supossed to rat out anyone...If you get caught...It's your fault. If I'd gotten caught with the weed, I wouldn't have said anything. I kept my mouth shut when I got caught smoking. I didn't say anything about her having diet pills too..I keep my mouth fucking shut, when she got caught shoplifting, I stood right by her...Didn't run, I stayed even when I would have gotten in shit too.. If you're stupid enough to get caught, you don't need to drag everyone down with you. But I am so fucked...So very fucked. Why did she do that to me? WHY?! Why can't I seem to trust anyone with anything? I always get in trouble when I trust people...So fuck trusting people. Fuck friends, fuck everything. I'm always in trouble!!!!! Why do I even keep my mouth shut for people who don't do it for me? Why do I bother doing anything? What are best friends even for? Talking to? I don't talk to her. I mean, I love her tons...But this is just really fucked. Really fucked. Thanks a lot Best Friend.
