I cry through my skin.

Mood: Worried and depressed
Listening to: My brother...He just came home.

 I feel so much like everything I've ever held onto is crashing down. Everything I ever thought was stable, or true, is turning out to be unstable and a lie. My Aunt who is dying of lung cancer and brain tumors went into surgery today to do some or another operation on her lung...Now, someone called and they're talking about it. I just keep thinking that at any moment the hospital can call and say that she's gone...She's dead. I have to catch the bus to school tomorrow...If the bus even runs from nearish my house to school. With my luck, it won't. Especially not at the times I need it to. For that would be very helpful. I can't want to school either...I live across town from it. Maybe if I started at around 4 AM I should get there by 8. Telephone! Is it for me?...No. No one ever calls me. Sad.