A Really Bad Day
Today absolutely sucked. I hate myself, I hate my life, I hate everything. Why is it I always suck? I want to cut my wrists. I really do. I want to fucking show the world how fucking okay I am. I broke up with Gustavo today. It wasn't working, there wasn't that click...Just wasn't. And then rehearsal sucked...The teacher just kept yelling and yelling and no matter what I did it was wrong. I can't do anything right. And I got a fucking D on my JRP! I hate myself for that. I can't forgive myself for being stupid. What is it about me that I just can't seem to get things right? I mean honestly...I fail at everything. I wanted to talk to Audrey...But now...I really don't. I just want to lay down and die. I don't think anyone can understand either.
