What I Want.
I want a husband, and kids...I want twin girls and a boy. I want a nice house on the beach...WHere I can hear the ocean every night as I fall asleep in my one true love's arms. I want to be a well known novelist, successful enough so that I can support my family, but I still want my husband to work(I don't know why).
But all of that is in the future. Right now...What do I want right now?
I want Jordan. I have Jordan. Kind of. He's swearing to the Gods and the heavens above that he will take me back...Soon. I hate that game. And honestly I don't want to ask why because I'm scared of the answer. I don't know what he's waiting for...But obviously he's waiting for something. It's scaring me...It makes my head scream GET OUT! NOW! RUN! Because it could mean that he's just waiting for another relationship to fizzle over.
Am I just being paranoid again? I don't know...I think so...But at the same time I don;t?