He's Doing It On Purpose.
I told him that I work 11-8. I told him what time lunch was. I told him I'd call him on my break. And I told him I'd call him at lunch. I was late calling him at lunch because Jason showed up and was talking to me...I didn't want to be rude...So he called me...Then only talked to me for like ten minutes. I told him I'd call him on my break...He didn't pick up. I texted him...He didn't text back. I left him a voicemail...He didn't say anything.I called him as soon as I got off...And he didn't call me back. WHY! Because he wants me to worry, and he wants me to be scared...And he's probably off drinking so that he can cheat on me and say 'Oh, well...I was drunk.' And then see how I react.
I can already tell you how I'll react.
At first I'll say it's fine...An eye for an eye. But this would be the second time he's been with another girl while 'in love' with me. So I'll start going crazy and asking am I really what he wants...And then I'll desperatly try to be everything he wants while becoming absolutely infuriated that he hurt me so fucking badly a second time...And then I'll blow up in a giant whirlpool of emotion and I'll hate him, but I'll love him...And then I don't know what I'll do. I'll probably wind up breaking up with him for a little bit and then getting back together because I'm fucking stupid and weak. AGH. And he has this all subconciously planned. Fucking asshole.
