I have a very bad feeling...
Today has been relatively good...No major fights, no major arguments...I cut my hair...I saw one of my friends that's actually a good influence on me...Jordan and I got along...And work wasn't even that bad even though I didn't want to go. I even got a ride home.
But something is very, very wrong. I can feel it...But I don't know what it is...
It has to do with Jordan. I called him on my break...We were fine, we talked...He said sweet things to me...It was all good. I told him I loved him and that I'd call him as soon as I got off work because I thought I'd be walking and he gets worried when I walk by myself at night. So I called him...And his phone was off. Okay, maybe he went to sleep? So I left him a voicemail and sent him a text message...He called me back about five minutes later...He told me that he was hanging out with his friend. Normally I wouldn't think twice about it...But he stuttered when he said it and he didn't tell me his friend's name...He always says his friend's name...And he never stutters. That's a sign of a lie.
Maybe I'm being paranoid...But usually I'm not. Maybe I'm overanalyzing...Sometimes I do...But I know Jordan...I know how he talks and I know his energy and something is very wrong...And for whatever reason...I think it's going to hurt really bad when I figure out what it is. I hope I'm wrong...I really do...But I don't think so. Gut feelings are the ones to always trust...
Please let me be wrong, because now I'm scared.
