Self inflicted Rehab
I have decided that drugs are completely ruining my life. I hate who I am when I'm high...I'm stupid and don't care about the world or anything...I do things I wouldn't normally do and get myself in places that I'm not safe in. I got my ipod jacked last night and there was some kid that was all over me...Practically trying to rape me. I freaked out and called my step dad for a ride.
Starting tomorrow, I am sober. I will be keeping a daily tally of urges and differences I see in myself and in improvements. I can't keep ruining my life...I'm so fucking sad and lonely all the time...The only time I do feel like I have friends is when I'm high as Hell with a group of other people that are high as Hell. I can't do this any longer...I need to start getting better. NOW.
I don't want to be like my mom or my dad...I don't want to be like Cassie's dad...I want to go live happily ever after and that can only be done if I get away from this fucking slovato culture.
Please God, let me become a good person. Or at least a sober one.
