I turned down pot.
I feel proud of myself....Yay me. Could have really used it too...My day has been absolute shit. But I'm begining to think I might have a slight addiction...Not like I physically need it...But it helps with a lot of shit I've got going on. And I really want it a lot of the times. Since I don't like the idea of being addicted, that shit is gone gone gone.
Boss-man Tiffy was in a bad mood all day and took it out on me. I woke up late after not getting to sleep until like 5 in the morning...Woke up at 10:15. Took a quick shower and then went to work looking like something out of Night of The Living Dead. Which of course, everyone commented on. People seemed to break shit on purpose...And if I tried cleaning it up it was always the wrong way according to Tiff and if I didn't then 'why the hell didn't I?' I tried to get out of work on time today so I could get Jordan's phone call(he almost always calls on Sunday) only to find out I'd already missed it. April 10th is my court date...I don't know what to expect. The absolute worst they can do to me is put me in Juvy for six months, and 5 days. That's till I'm 18....I think I'd kill myself though. I don't think Jordan would wait for me...As fucked up as that sounds. I feel evil saying that...Because he's supossed to be my one true love and everything...And he IS. He completes me in a way no one else ever could and he makes me smile for real...I guess I'm just a cynical bitch because I don't trust him or anybody for that matter. I don't trust the male species. I don't trust females. Damn. I don't even trust this weblog half the time.
Oh, and on top of all that...I think I'm being followed. I hear footsteps on my street late...When no one is out and I keep seeing the same car with the same driver over and over again...It's sketching me out. Like, I don't want to walk around at night because of it. I'm half debating just taking Pyro out now and walking him to see if anybody else is out...But that's a bad idea. It's a Sunday night in my shitty ass city...If someone is trying to kill me or something...I'd be dead and even if I did scream nobody would hear it. So I guess I'll stay in tonight:-p I'd like to go be with someone though...I'd like to go be with Jordan. But that I can't do. Suckage.
