Another bad day
I dunno, today was supossed to be really good. I was supossed to hang out with Audrey and one of the guys I think I'm kinda dating...Supossed to go see The Simpsons movie....Wasn't supossed to eat...Wasn't supossed to talk to Jordan...It was supossed to be a good drama free day. Instead, I go to work. I impale my wrist with a frickin pen...Not on purpose either, I eat, and Jordan asks me to go steady with him. I told him no....I just can't trust him like that after what happened. Who could? I don't feel like playing the dating game anymore..Maybe I will move in with my ex so I don't have to deal with looking for the one Mr. Right admist the Mr. Wrongs. I'm tired of being not being single persay, but not having a boyfriend. I'm tired of giving my heart out only to have it handed back in pieces. Then I'm tired of putting all the little pieces back together and repeating the cycle. I just feel so done...So out of everything. Out of thought, out of joy, out of tears...I'm just here, and I'm just alone, with guys asking for my number who don't even know me. Maybe they think I'm easy. Apparantly I am. I really wanted to go out and do something, I really wanted to see people and meet someone...But now...I just want to sit here and cut and then go to sleep.
