Stupidity
How dare I. How dare I think even for the tiniest second that I was worth someone liking me? ESPECIALLY a nice guy that I actually happen to like. Kyle is in love with this girl in our play...No, not my friend Mykael like I thought before. A different one. A beautiful little blonde. I don't understand...Why don't guys like me? Why don't the nice guys like me? Why am I always what they settle for and never what they strive for? I'm never what they want...Just what is almost good enough. Story of my life right? I just...I really like him...And I've felt like crying...Because I actually thought he might like me back. I thought I might have a chance...And so I was going to tell him that I liked him...But now I obviously can't. Now I'm obviously just a friend...I can't believe I thought he liked me! Of course he doesn't...He couldn't. I'm ugly, I'm fat, I'm antisocial...And I hate myself. How can anyone like that? They can't...It's impossible. I can't even like me. It just hurts that much more because I thought something was real...And it's not. It was all in my head. God I'm just so stupid! I guess romance is for some people...But not for me. Never for me.
