Fat
You know...I figured this would happen. I figured I'd freak out about how hideously huge I am again. I have to go back to what I was...I have to go back to a slave to the scale...To lying, to faking, to making excuses. I can't handle being this...monster anymore. I hate myself I have to lose weight NOW or I have to kill myself!! I am a fucking fat failure!!! I really hate myself. I hate myself for being everything I am. I am such a fucking failure...I hate myself. I need to die...I need to kill myself...I need to lose weight..NOW.
