Still alive
Mood: Depressed, lonley, suicidal
Sorry I haven't written in so long, so much random drama has happened though. Most recent of which being, I spent 5 days in the psyche ward due to a suicide attempt that didn't quite pan out. All of you people who think that sort of stuff helps? You're wrong. Ever since getting out, I've felt worse. Now, I'm going to be going to a therapist on a regular basis and a group for people with issues with self injury and another for eating disorder people. Aren't I special? Besides the psyche ward, another one of my Aunt's was diagnosed with cancer. Hers is breast cancer. She'll be having her boob chopped off on April 3rd, mark your calenders. Skye also might have cancer...She's going into surgery in about a week. WHY DOES EVERYONE GET CANCER?!?! Other than that...Not a whole lot in my world. I'm debating on whether or not I should make another attempt at suicide tomorrow...Probably not. I don't want to die, I just don't want to live. Does that make any sense? Probably not. Oh, and I'm considering transferring schools. My mum and dad both agree that I should. Did I tell you about that? My dad has become more involved in my life. There's a real shocker. I don't know if transferring is the right thing to do...Yes, school is a big part of what messes with my depression....But, if I transfer, wouldn't I be letting them win? Although, an attempt at suicide probably was letting them win too. Oh well...I'll try to actually write a little more regularly here.
