Butterflies and Hurricanes

Sep 17, 2005 at 18:34 o\clock

Male Escort!

by: Honest_Mistake

Mood: Hungover
Listening to: the sound of running water in my fish tank

I've just got out of bed which is quite disgusting considering it now 4pm!  I did get up and 10am and went out and got some breakfast with J (new man) but went back to bed at 1pm cos I was feelin well rough... plus my son, K is with my husband for the weekend and it's rare I can do it.  Plus.. I have to be up at 4.30am in the morning cos I'm doing a car boot sale and getting rid of loads of stuff I don't need.

 
When my husband suggested we go out for tea, as a family on Wednesday, it was meant to be to talk and try and find some kind of peace and good level of relationship between us.  For the last week he has been turning on the 'I am still in love with you' and 'I do want to be with you for the rest onf my life'  but also the 'I can never forgive myself for what I have done and how I have hurt the person I love most in the world, how can I ever be with you now Knowing what I've done' (You're probably being sick now!) and going on that its killing him to know I am seeing someone else.
 
So, he  then texted me on Wednesday saying he would pick me up at 4 but had to leave by half 6.  Which I thought was a bit odd since we were meant to be talking.  Suddenly any talking would be rushed.  When he came, I said, how come you have to leave at 6.30.  He said I just do' and was being all defensive, next he's saying he doesn't want to tell me cos I will probably get upset.  So I said, oh right, you're meeting a woman then.  Yes, he said.  It's nothing serious, met her a couple of weeks ago and was just goin for a few drinks.  I was absolutely gutted but didn't let it show.
 
We ate out, then, had a couple of drinks afterwards.  I asked where he had met her, then he said he had actually gone out a few times with her friend, and then this woman rang him asking if she could take him out.  He said she was rich, a bit older than me (I'm 32) (he's 29).  She paid for everything.  Then he said he felt she was trying to buy him, so when I asked what he meant he said she had asked him if she could take him away on holiday!  So, obviously I said how wierd it was for two women who are supposed to be friends seeing the same man after each other and that it was just not normal and pretty fucking wierd.  He just shrugged and said, well, it's just something to do, I might as well go if they're payig for my night out, it means nothing to me etc and you're seeing someone else.
 
10 minutes later he started to tell me, and said I would probably laugh, that he was thinking becoming a male escort, that he could make up to £500 a time.  You don't have to sleep with them but if you do it's called extra's, and he wouldnt be doin that.  YEAH RIGHT!
 
I am so stupid, but was also so hurt about him still going on this date when we should have been the priority with our talk, that I didn't put 2 & 2 together, ie, rich women, using same man, paying for everything, until I told my friend yesterday and she said 'that sounds like a male escort!  Then I remembered what he'd said he'd been thinking of doin! 
 
I texted this morning, and put... put 2&2 together about your rich dates who pay for everythin and exchange men... enjoy your escort work!
 
To which he texted back ...Sarah, I am not a male escort!  Yeak right, course you're not! 
 
Bloody man whore!  Can't beleive that this is the same man who I married, loved and cherished.  It's bizarre.

Comments for this entry:

  1. shellbug773 wrote at Sep 17, 2005 at 19:29 o\clock:Wow! Sometimes you just never know who these people really are until they\'re able to be \"free\" in their own mind, you know? Sounds like he\'s a double-edged blade. He\'s wanting you back but he\'s wanting to be a male escort?! What is that about?! He has a son to think of! Sheesh. I hope you\'re able to work all of this out and get through it. If you ever need to talk to someone I\'m here. I think Im also going to add your blog to my favorites, if you don\'t mind? You can feel free to visit my blog, too, Im \"Private Thoughts of a Redneck Girl\" or if you want the link: www.blogigo.com/shellbug773. Just leave me a comment and an email notification will pop up and I\'ll be here if you need to talk or whatnot. =)



    Shel
  2. Honest_Mistake wrote at Sep 17, 2005 at 19:45 o\clock:He says he wants me back but hasn\'t done anythin about it to try and get me back. I would probably have given him another chance but the more stuff that comes out each week the more I realise he\'s someone completely different and I haven\'t got a clue who he is. It doesn\'t stop me loving him though which is bizarre after all he\'s put me through!



    He flatly denies he has become a male escort but what female would be happy for her friend to start dating someone she\'s seeing and a coincidence they\'re both rich and paying for everything! He\'s either doing it or made it up to try and see if I\'m jealous. I\'d say he was doing it! He\'s a good looking guy, witty, funny and a model strong body so it wouldn\'t surprise me at all. I\'m beginning to see how big his ego is and how much he bloody fancies himself! Funny thing is though, right from meeting him, he always said how he couldn\'t beleive I wanted him, when I could have anyone I wanted! That he felt I was too good for him! Used to say it all the time. He was right I guess. And he still makes out that he is madly in love with me and that I am the most special person in the world. I just don\'t get it at all.



    Cheers for the offer to chat! Sometimes when my sons in bed and I\'m here on my own I feel the loneliness, so it\'d be great to chat on here!



    I\'ll check out your blog too! Thanks Shel!



    Sarah
  3. shellbug773 wrote at Sep 17, 2005 at 20:14 o\clock:It\'s hard to let go of the first person you actually let inside your heart. It\'s a normal feeling, I assure you! =)



    I have 3 messenger systems. Yahoo instant Messenger: shellbug773@yahoo.com MSN Messenger: shellyjean05@hotmail.com and I have AOL Instant Messenger: screen name: shellbug773



    Feel free to find me on any of these. I wouldn\'t mind at all!
  4. HIPPEE wrote at Sep 17, 2005 at 23:55 o\clock:Sarah, this is going to be a classic case of HEARTBREAK HELL!!!!!! Take a good LOOK in the MIRROR.
  5. Honest_Mistake wrote at Sep 27, 2005 at 01:27 o\clock:Hey! I\'m checking out. In fact, I have!

    I have let it go. I no longer want it, the whole lot of it, him, us, that life. Nope, I don\'t. I can see now, each day with more clarity. I really am worth more, too good for him, don\'t even want him now. At all.



    AND!!! I AM GOING ON HOLIDAY IN4 DAYS!!! WOOOHOOOO!! FANTASTICO!!

    LAZY DAYS IN THE SUN< SPLASHING HAVING FUN!



    We English have a BAD reputation for getting drunk. I can assure you all that me and my friend Lisa will be smashing it up (not literally we\'re not thugs) and falling over singing our drunken la la la song. Which goes... la la la la la la la very much on and on and out of tune with giggling fits in between. She falls over, takes me with her if she can, which is quite often!

  6. HIPPEE wrote at Sep 28, 2005 at 19:13 o\clock:WELL!!!this is bizarre behavior coming from a very Bright and Intelligent woman cannot be same person that has been trading e-mail with me.This sound\'s more like some wild,and Absolute Animal that love\'s too Party,just goes to show you never know!!!





    *HIPPEE*

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