Butterflies and Hurricanes

Sep 23, 2005 at 00:03 o\clock

Back to work, sleep paralyses and pre-romantic meal

by: Honest_Mistake

Mood: Tired but relaxed
Listening to: Dare - Gorillaz, What a top top track!

Went back to work today.  It went well, should start finding some sense of normality again now.  Although I am sleeping very badly again.  I think I've had 2 nights decent sleep in the last 4 or 5 weeks at least.

I've had sleep paralysyes again last night, had it a few times recently.  It's pretty freaky but I've got quite used to it now and can actually manage to wake myself up from it.  I get it when I'm stressed or over tired.  Think I might take a trip to my Dr to see if she'll give me some sleeping tablets.  How I would love to have a full nights sleep for a few nights on the run.  That would be like heaven!

After my last lengthly blog I've kind of been busy and haven't felt like writing anything.  But since I wrote it its given me a sort of calm and strength.  He's been texting me (soon to be ex husband) trying to make contact but I've just ignored him.  He's been all nice and thoughtful about me in his texts.  But I feel ok, not tempted to respond.  I've been blocking him out of my thoughts really without trying very hard at all... and

While I was sat at work today I was thinking of J with a smile on my face and he's taking me out for a romantic meal tomorrow!  He's certainly put a smile on my face.

 

Comments for this entry:

  1. mey2 wrote at Sep 23, 2005 at 10:52 o\clock:Good for you for ignoring your soon to be ex husband texts. He just want you to keep thinking about him and he is being very unfair.

    Enjoy your meal with J and take care of yourself....

    *HUGS*

    Mey
  2. Honest_Mistake wrote at Sep 27, 2005 at 00:55 o\clock:Yes, you are right, very unfair. e\'s since sent more and is obviously trying to get into dialogue. I\'ve not got into it at all, with surpising ease which is a sign of getting over it. Although, when he dropped my son off on Friday he looked really ill, really low and his eyes were so sad. I just hugged my son, smiled at hima nd said ok, cya with a smile but not a smile, you know the maintaining amicable arrangements one. I felt my heart sink to see him like that, as I suppose it would. But I closed the door and walked in withough giving him a chance to look into my eyes, or mine his, or for him to speak to me.



    Thanks for your hugs. I really do appreciate these comments, they\'re all helping!



    A sunrise always follows a dark night. I think my sunrise is on the horizon.
  3. calicheerchic wrote at Nov 5, 2005 at 23:52 o\clock:hi my name is jessica...idk if this is really weird er random to you but i have sleep parayses too...and idk what it is er how to deal with it. and i was wondering if you culd help me out. bc its really weird and scray bc i cnt wake up i hav to like force myself to wake up. like i cnt moved but i can see everything around me. and so i looked it up on google and i read ur blog and it seems youve had it for a while...so i desided to join this thingy so i culd leave you a comment. if you want to kno more about me i hav a myspace im like a regular girl and everyhting....im not a stalker of anykind i jst need sum help with this sleeping thing.

    www.myspace.com/beachbumchick

    or my emial beachbumchick012000@yahoo.com

    thank you so much and im sorry if this seems weird, but i would like sum help with it bc its scary.

    pealse w/b.

    -jessica

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