Beefy Or Peachy

Well as a treat and relief for both hubby and I we are hiring 'Lucy and Ethel' housecleaners to come in to do the heavy duty cleaning for us. We have never been in this situation before so we have never had anyone come in to help us. Usually, no matter what the situation has been, between the 2 of us we have been able to keep up with things. Not so right now.

So tonight was spent in cleaning off counters, throwing out things that could be thrown, changing our bed and the rest is left for them. They send in 3 people and supposedly are done in an hour. Perhaps so, we shall see.

We might need to get them once more after my surgery and then we should be all set. My gf and I did what we could to help hubby with folding clothes and sorting things that could be thrown out or put away.

Now we are all waiting for 24 and Heroes to come on and hopefully we will get to bed a bit earlier as I will have to be up and dressed before they get here. I did ask my gf to come over as I feel kind of vulnerable not being able to get around much. I'm sure out cat Jordan will hide himself accordingly as he hates strangers and vacuums, lol.

I'm very tired.

Aly

Well sometimes as I look on my life currently, I wonder at what point I either lost my way, or found my way! That depends on what day you ask me, smile!

After being married many years to my highschool sweetheart, I came to the conclusion that I didn't really love him after all. We had two sons and lived a quote 'normal life.' However, my heart cried out for more meaning and more love daily. I stayed in that marriage for the sake of my sons until I felt it was safe for me to leave and for them to move on. I stayed too long for me, but not too long for them.

At first I seemed I had lost my way completely. Then, I met several people online while chatting and a whole new world opened up to me. I used this forum as a white canvas on which to paint my past life and to begin a new life. This new life brought my current hubby into my world. But he was so much younger! Surely God must have a keen sense of humor to bring the two of us together? We met 9 years ago and we just celebrated our 7th wedding anniversary. He is the love of my life no matter what the future holds for us. The love and compassion he has given me freely has lifted me up to higher places of love then I ever thought possible.

Are we discriminated against you might say? Certainly, by some who can't understand how the two of us can be in love given our age difference. However, love doesn't factor in age. It is only our thoughts and 'shoulds' that would frown against our love. Oh bother I say!

If I can be in love, love unconditionally, and know what it feels like to be cherished, and to cherish my love back, then I have been blessed for sure. I don't need anyone else's approval or sanction that it is ok, or it is not ok. My sons have come to love him as they see how wonderful he treats me and takes care of me. They no longer have concerns about him taking advantage of me but instead are happy for us. What more can I ask for? Nothing, except my health to improve so I can share more healthy times with him.

Am I crazy? Oh yes! Crazy in love with my husband for sure :).

Aly

It is so tiring on the person having to have a health test/scan of some sort done and the person going with them. The tension and worry just seems to feed or spread from one person to the other. We are both glad the CT scan of her kidneys is done and now we wait until early next week for the results. We were so tired, we napped often this afternoon.

Tomorrow I have to get back on my swimming schedule as I feel so out of shape and it is not good for my fibromyalgia to not exercise. I have been so lax about this, I feel terrible!

Hubby is singing in a concert on Saturday so he's off to the rehearsal this evening. It looks to be a great concert with singing, chanting, piano and organ solos, and african drumming, a dancer, and more. I'm sure we will all love it :).

Hope everyone had a good weekend.

Hugs,
Aly

Dear Diary,

I must admit today is abit difficult for me as I feel so isolated and alone today. Some days I deal with being here by myself just fine while other days I yearn to be out and about and feeling well enough to do something adventuresome.

I guess I can do some more cleaning, oh joy, lol! I know that dusting and vacuuming needs to be done but hubby usually does the vacuuming as that hurts my back so I guess I'll go be a dusting bunny for awhile.

I hope others are out and enjoying themselves. I will be glad when my sweetie comes home tonight.

TTFN

I've had fun with the little quizzes and horoscopes and chat here and there and now I must get some much needed sleep as I know the phone will start ringing early with those friends of mine who get up early and almost always forget I go to bed late, grrrrrrrr....

Nitey nite all,
Aly

Dear Diary,

Some days I get too self absorbed in my own little world and I realize I haven't taken enough time visiting others in their corner of the blog world. I realize I need to find a balance between mine and theirs as I feel we all need equal time and equal listening, and sometimes maybe even a little advice or just a kind word or two.

I will make an effort to take a few minutes each day to just stop and read others' posts and not just worry about how often I am posting, or how lonely I might be feeling. Others may be just as lonely and might enjoy a visit or comment too!

TTFN,
Aly

Dear Diary,

It feels like I've been left alone here at Blogigo today. No comments or silly little messages. It makes me sad when it feels like I live here in an empty void, with all these white walls all around me.

I also haven't felt well today. I've felt weak all over. Maybe its a good thing I'm seeing the cardiologist tomorrow. I just don't feel right and it is worrying me.

I guess I'll say goodnite now.

Aly