Beefy Or Peachy

Well after several more phone calls I have an appt with one of the Dr's who takes care of the Phoenix Suns so I guess I should be thankful for that. I see him on Friday morning and have to bring my MRI films with me. We have to go way out to Arrowhead so we have a long drive but I don't care  as long as we get this knee fixed and soon. I finally dozed abit this morning for about an hour and I'm still sleepy so I hope to catch a few more hours soon.

I only had about 20 seconds to talk to hubby but he said his evaluation couldn't have gone better! As a matter of fact he said it went fantastic and would call me when he got done with training a class so I'm trying to stay awake to hear some good news.

Will post again later.

Something to smile about and I am for him as he has deserved good news from work for some time now!

May the love of God dwell in us all,
Aly

Now that it is more difficult for me to sit here at the computer and I still have the surgery to look forward to how I wish I had made the decision to buy a laptop when I had a bit of extra money when the SSD came through. I thought, "why spend the money on a laptop when I have a perfectly good desktop pc?"

Now I am so regretting that decision as I have had to lie in bed so much and I am not a tv person. I guess I will have to try reading more. I haven't done nearly enough reading in the past two years. I do have 3 new books on the way. Glad I do!

Getting ready to take the Percocet the doctor ordered and hope that will help me sleep.

May Peace and Love, and Courage follow our footsteps,
Aly

I can only sit here shaking my head in disbelief as I never felt a tear occur but it seems I have one now in my rt knee.  I had one 6 years ago in my left knee but that time I knew I had injured it. Anyways now I have to find a good knee surgeon and get scheduled as quickly as possible as this pain is quite unbearable. I need sleep and I need to be able to walk. They have finally ordered some crutches for me and stronger pain meds until I can get this done.

I am off now to try and settle down and rest until hubby gets home from work and picking up meds.

Aly 

Mood: Frustrated

After being told yesterday that the results had been sent over to my doctor's office late in the afternoon, I called a few minutes ago only to find out they still haven't received any results. I then called back the AZ Imaging office and found out for some reason the transcription from my MRI was never done! The medical records person then told me he would personally walk over to the department and see that it was done and call me back within an hour with an update on this mess. It is so frustrating to just have to wait and be at the mercy of failed communication, miscommunication, or just negligence, especially when you are sleep deprived due to pain.

I feel so much compassion for those who have to deal with this on a regular basis. In the meantime, due to the rough night I had, hubby has taken the morning off to help me out this morning and will go into work later on today. I am so lucky he is so gentle and caring.

I think I best find a funny movie to watch and perhaps it will allow me some laughter and then some much needed sleep.

May we all be blessed with love in our life this day,
Aly

Well I am up some at night when hubby is home to help me out and to cut down on my walking around to get things. I slept most of today during the afternoon and early evening. We watched our shows, 24 and Heroes together and tried to have a somewhat normal evening. I called the Imaging place and they said they did get the MRI results over to my doctor sometime in the later afternoon so I will be calling them in the morning if I don't hear from them first.

Once I know if there isn't a tear or fracture then I can let my chiropractor work on trying to straighten out my thigh bone and work on the muscles around my knee. I just have to have concrete news before that happens.

The waiting is most difficult when I am not able to do anything to help my knee feel better except to stay off of it as much as I can and to ice it.

Do not take anything for granted folks. Enjoy your day.

May Peace follow our footsteps,
Aly

When I awake later on today if I am fortunate enough to open my eyes another day, I will invite hope into my heart, my mind, and my soul to deal with all the health issues before me. I will not invite gloom or fear to stay by my side, instead I will invite healing, hope, and good news to come my way.

I make this pledge to myself tonight.

May Love, and Courage, and Peace follow our footsteps,
Aly

Well I slept so much yesterday during the day I guess due to the pain and that is how my body is choosing to handle it, that I could not sleep last night. I also knew hubby had to work today and coping alone with one bad leg and just a cane that really doesn't help much, that today would be challenging at best. Well I slept a few hours and woke up, managed to make toast and jelly and tried to get it back in my bedroom without dropping anything. Oh well, that didn't happen. The toast fell on the rug face down with the grape jelly all over the rug! That of course meant getting the resolve and trying to clean that up before the rug was stained and starting over for breakfast. Well the pain in my knee cannot tolerate all this walking and without crutches this is just not working.

Hubby got to work only to find out that his boss sent out a late email on Thursday after hubby left for his weekend saying he would not be in on Sunday. It also turns out the other team lead called out sick so he is the only manager who bothered to be there so now he has to stay later. He was worried about leaving me alone today and now has to stay until 6 tonight. He will be addressing this lack of communication with them all tomorrow. He does have phones and an email where he could have been informed ahead of time to try and make some arrangements for someone to be here with me part of the day. He is angry over their disrespect and lack of professionalism. Me, I'm just hurting and making a mess of things.

I can tell by how my knee feels that any housework is just out of the question and I am destined to be mostly on my back with an ice bag when I feel up to getting one. I hate to say this but by the way this leg is feeling it feels like something is structurally wrong, sigh.

Well it is hurting just sitting here with my leg bent so I guess that's all for now. I thought maybe my gf could come over for awhile but she has a birthday party to go to this afternoon and that is more fun then coming here.

Maybe later I'll try again to sit up awhile,
Aly

Well hubby has been looking after me since the onset of this horrible pain in my right knee area. I am not able to do the simplest of tasks that require bending and turning and so my household chores that I normally do have now become almost impossible to do alone. It makes me think how it must be for people who are disabled all the time what their lives must be like and how much they must learn to do on their own and also how much they must need from others to cope with their disabilities while still finding some joy in life.

Although I do not take my body for granted and I have learned to live with the disabling disease of fibromyalgia and disc degeneration, whenever I break a bone or rupture a tendon, and whatever has now happened to my right knee, I am left wondering how others manage every day of their lives with a disability they know they will never recover from. Does their faith become stronger to compensate their loss of mobility? Do they become bitter and gripe about everything being terrible in their lives? Would it be so wrong of them to feel that way? Is life ever fair?

Well I don't pretend to know these answers tonight. I do know tomorrow will be more difficult for me and I will have to plan each trip that I must walk to do something using a cane and trying not to put much pressure on my right leg. Not much will get accomplished in the house, but I will do what I can. Perhaps I will start a book that is lying in the next room waiting to be read. I also finally ordered Mother God, and 2 other books I have been wanting to read so perhaps I will be slowed down with the time to read them.

I pray with all my heart that this injury will not require yet another surgery. I already have 1 surgery pending and another procedure I am dreading and have put off as long as I can. I must find the way to deal with these things and get past my fears and procrastination.

Well for now I must get an ice pack and head off to rest again.

May Peace and Courage and Love follow our footsteps.....
Aly

Well I could only get the right knee done tonight as that's all I could take of that noisy machine and being in that position. Of course the technician wouldn't tell me anything so I won't know the outcome until next week. That is such a waste that they can't tell you so you can use the proper equipment so as not to injure yourself further. Should I use a cane, or should I buy crutches? My doctor wouldn't order crutches for me until she knows if I have a fracture or not............... So I guess I stay in bed alot this weekend.

I guess we'll have to rent movies tomorrow so we don't go stir crazy. I am so tired from the pain and the stress of getting there to get the MRI done that I can barely hold my eyes open so I guess I have to go to bed.

Hugs all,
Aly

Well fellow bloggers I just have one thing to say. After looking at the number of views my blog had the day I posted about Google and its sex results, I have come to the conclusion that one simply needs to add the word 'SEX' to their blog daily to get more hits! So if you have something meaningful to share please do so. If you want others to read your blog, just add the word 'sex' to your blog and you will get more hits. Now the people just interested in sex might be disappointed when they don't find any graphic sex pics or erotica in your post, but others who are looking for information more meaningful and helpful to their everyday lives will be most grateful I'm sure!

I suppose we could all check out this theory, lol. I suppose it could be the word ' Google.' Which word do you think it is?

Musing about blog posts while I grimace in pain here.
Aly

Well I'm sure I mentioned in a previous post about having to be put on a medication called Levaquin for a UTI I had several months ago. I suffered from extreme muscle weakness in my knees and arms while taking this medication. I did not know that this medication could cause these side effects until 7 days into taking this medication when I was almost not able to get up out of bed on my own. My hubby then checked the medication out online and it said that if you start to experience any muscle weakness to stop taking the medication immediately. Well had I known that before I had taken it, I certainly would have heeded that warning. Since then my knees have been weak, and especially my right one. Now I can't bend it in certain positions and I am limping . I am scheduled for an MRI later on today for both knees, if I can stand it. I hate those machines as I am also claustrophobic as well and the noise is terrrible, but it must be done.

I guess my sister has to come to Phoenix to give a friend of hers a ride up to visit her ailing son and was thinking of staying here. I called them back to let them know I am just too miserable to have company and I haven't been able to clean the house this week. I just don't have any cheerfulness in me right now to deal with company, even family, and given our recent history, I can't deal with any stress either.

I sure hope things improve quickly as I am not happy with my body lately. I can feel the resentment internally over all the tests and procedures I need to have done this year. Oh well, enough complaining. It won't help. I just have to get things done and pray for the strength and courage to deal with each one, one at a time. 

I have been avoiding getting other health related tests and a surgery done long enough. My fear has kept me from dealing with them but if I don't get them done I can suffer worse problems and conditions. Having had 5 surgeries already I am very nervous about the anesthesia as I am slow coming out of it and that scares me. I guess I might as well be honest.

Well that's it for now. I have to work on my attitude and try to take care of my knee until a diagnosis is made.

May peace follow your footsteps, and mine,
Aly

Since I am a member of Pogo I have 3 Free Guest Passes I can give away every month if anyone is interested. They are good for 5 days and you can use them in any of the member only games/rooms and with the pass there are no intermissions to wait for while playing their games. Just let me know and we can work out the details .

Happy Games,

Aly

Curious Observations Today :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::

|:: sexual references appear 42% of the time (ok, we knew that)
|:: sex is the number #1 searched term (that was a little shocking)
|:: sexual references appear 4 times in the top 5 - Britney is included because of possible sex tape (wow!)

|:: References to under age, child, young, and preteen related searches appear over 15 times(speachless)

This summary is disappointing to say the least. With the internet we have the world at our fingertips, literally. There is so much to learn about that is worthwhile, so much to share, topics worthy of our attention and discussions, emails to send, blogs to write or comment on, quizzes to take, items to buy, and yet here we are still with sex being the #1 searched term.

Is the world just obsessed with sex and pornography? Should there be more warnings about sites containing sex pics and or pornography? Just curious what others think about this!

Aly

I just wanted to bring to your attention that I have added a link to a site that describes Chiropractic Treatment and all the help it provides the body in its natural healing process. Dr. Klein was kind enough to leave a comment to my post and I in turn surfed to read about his site online. It is both informative and creative in its presentation and includes a 'cartoon book' to help explain how chiropractic care works!

The link is:  http://www.bodyabcs.com/

Peace to Your Hearts,
Aly

Well hubby and I were at the Chiropractor's office for about an hour and a half last night while he worked on us both and made sure we were both feeling better before we left his office. We closed the office down with him, lol. Today I can breathe easier and my ribs feel much better. He has given us some muscle strengthening tips on how to try and prevent this from occuring too often. I don't know how people manage without a chiropractor. I've needed this kind of care for over 20 years now. It is just as important to me as a good primary dr given my fibro and other health concerns. I even slept through the night and I haven't done that in weeks now so I actually feel rested this morning.

I spoke to both my sons yesterday and that always makes me feel good. Just hearing their voices and knowing they are doing ok is wonderful news to me :). Today is my granddaughter's 5th birthday, smile . I hope she enjoys her new 'talking' baby doll we sent to her, grin.

Well have a good day folks!

Peace to Your hearts,
Aly

What a night for TV shows!!! The power of Bauer and the mystique of Heroes all packaged into one night. Now wouldn't you know it these are the only 2 shows I watch faithfully and they are both on at the same time. I do hope that changes as now we have to tape one while we watch the other one, lol.

That is my quota for the week of watching television besides a few nights of watching The Daily Show with hubby. Well off to the chiropractor for us later on today and my body is looking forward to that I can tell you. Hubby isn't much better with his hips and his back. This cold weather has done a number on us!

Have a good day folks!
Aly

Well sometimes as I look on my life currently, I wonder at what point I either lost my way, or found my way! That depends on what day you ask me, smile!

After being married many years to my highschool sweetheart, I came to the conclusion that I didn't really love him after all. We had two sons and lived a quote 'normal life.' However, my heart cried out for more meaning and more love daily. I stayed in that marriage for the sake of my sons until I felt it was safe for me to leave and for them to move on. I stayed too long for me, but not too long for them.

At first I seemed I had lost my way completely. Then, I met several people online while chatting and a whole new world opened up to me. I used this forum as a white canvas on which to paint my past life and to begin a new life. This new life brought my current hubby into my world. But he was so much younger! Surely God must have a keen sense of humor to bring the two of us together? We met 9 years ago and we just celebrated our 7th wedding anniversary. He is the love of my life no matter what the future holds for us. The love and compassion he has given me freely has lifted me up to higher places of love then I ever thought possible.

Are we discriminated against you might say? Certainly, by some who can't understand how the two of us can be in love given our age difference. However, love doesn't factor in age. It is only our thoughts and 'shoulds' that would frown against our love. Oh bother I say!

If I can be in love, love unconditionally, and know what it feels like to be cherished, and to cherish my love back, then I have been blessed for sure. I don't need anyone else's approval or sanction that it is ok, or it is not ok. My sons have come to love him as they see how wonderful he treats me and takes care of me. They no longer have concerns about him taking advantage of me but instead are happy for us. What more can I ask for? Nothing, except my health to improve so I can share more healthy times with him.

Am I crazy? Oh yes! Crazy in love with my husband for sure :).

Aly

Mood: hurting

Well I have missed my little blog but I have been in bed for the better part of the weekend. My ribs have moved again underneath where I broke my shoulder 4 years ago. Somehow they must tell me to do something to strengthen the muscles around these ribs so this doesn't continue to happen. I was hooked up to my TNS unit Friday night and we went to the Phoenix Symphony and the perfornances were wonderful. So I was using the stem while watching the performance so we managed to get out for a few hours. After that though I became more uncomfortable and I have just been sleeping to deal with the pain so I must get to the chiropractor again and then get some physical therapy for this area.

Other news of the area is that downtown Phoenix had some snow flurries today! I will have to do some research to see when the last time that happened here, lol. It has been very cold the past two weeks and everyone has been grumbling and not use to this kind of weather.

Well that's about it for me tonight. Just got up to have some dinner and do a quick post.

Peace to all,
Aly

Well the Illusionist is a good story about a magician and the love of his life and how they lose one another and find one another again. The plot thickens when she is betrothed to marry a Prince. I won't give away the rest of the story as it is definitely worth watching! The second movie was Take the Lead with Antonio Banderas based on a true story about a professional ballroom dancer bringing his art to the 'rejects' of the schools in New York. This is a movie about the hard knocks of life, how to overcome them, great dancing, and pursuing dreams. Hubby thought we just wanted to watch it because of Antonio, not so. We both love to watch dancing and love this kind of story.

Time for some sleep.

Sweet Dreams,
Aly

Well we will see if we can pull off having them up here this weekend if hubby and I both stop sniffling and sneezing. I had it wicked yesterday and I heard him sniffling this morning. Even my eyeballs hurt. I finally took a pain pill and went to bed and I feel abit better this morning so now I'm doing laundry, cleaning bathrooms and sinks, and just sprucing things up in general in case they are able to come up. If not, I think the cosmos does not want us to get together. This is about our 4th attempt at it!

Jordan will be unhappy as he doesn't care for my sister's loud voice so he will be in hiding for most of the day and be out prowling and sniffing around at night making sure we are all safe, lol. Yesterday they cut down a huge tree in back of our place on the golf course and it scared he and I about to wits end it was such a large crash! It sounded like a bomb going off. I wish they had warned me as it was right outside the master bedroom window, lol.

My brother has been giving me some encouragement in relation to my health and hopes we can get together as a family as he thinks it will be good for us all. Honestly, I think it is an attempt for my sister to try to make amends for all things she has said about me. Will I trust her? I don't really know. I want to but I am scared to....

I do hope everyone has a good weekend. If I do have company here I won't have much time to post unless it is during the night.

Hugs and Peace to Your Hearts,
Aly