http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today Probably not a very interesting blog but well it gives me something to do right? en belfast_bell belfast_bell Sat, 07 Jul 2007 13:34:26 +0200 daily 1   I feel so bad today, Yes the hangover and everything that comes with it! I really think the OH and myself should stop drinking, were pretty lethal when we do, we end up yelling and shouting at eachother and its really not good! Most of the time we are great, even when we do have a drink we are great most of the times but then there are other times when we really fight it out! I hate feeling this way, like everything is my fault and trust me its not! I really would love someone to talk too, my friends all have there own problems and i feel alone! My OH thinks i should talk to him but how can i whenever it ends in tears! Just dont know what to do, feel like taking myself off somewhere and being alone for a while! Although i that wont make me feel much better! Sat, 07 Jul 2007 13:34:26 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/Back-Again/34/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/Back-Again/34/ Glad that weekend is over to be honest! Was not the best! Feel really wrecked today! Was up 3 times last night with a nightmare! Wasnt the same one but they where all about something falling on top of me ie chairs, the wall caving in etc etc! I dont usually get them that bad and iv realised that whenever i eat cheese they're worse so i dont touch cheese now! But i must not be able to eat tuna either because i had tuna sandwitches last night and i had them the worst i had done in a long time! Strange! I think if i was my boyfriend i would have really lost it last night but he was very good and cuddled me when i awoken screaming and dripping with sweat! Its very irritiating and im starting to dread going to bed! Even though in general they are not that bad, i can go months without having one! It just frightens me when i do have one! Id really like to get to the bottom of it! My sister is almost 16 yrs older than me and she gets nightmares similar! Its really odd! Quite disturbing! Anyway... Mon, 26 Mar 2007 14:36:31 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/New-week/33/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/New-week/33/ Spring is definately not in the air where i am at the minute! The hills are only just becoming clear after being covered in snow!Have not blogged in so long iv been so busy! From the view in my new flat i can see our mountain and it looks very bleak i have to say! Although at the minute i am at my computer course which i started a few mths back! Iv stopped working for a while and iv went back to studying!It suiting me so much more atthe minute! With being practically non stop since the start of the year with getting flat arranged and to be honest we still havent got everything finished! Although it is looking a lot better than it was before hand! We really have made some great changes to it! Looking forward to this weekend! Last weekend was St Patrick's day and it was a good night! We're pretty much skint at the minute so we couldnt really get out and celebrate but we had planned a quiet night in with a few drinks and just watching some telly! Just as we were getting settled my... Thu, 22 Mar 2007 15:24:13 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/Spring-already/32/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/Spring-already/32/ Cant really believe that this year is over! Well i mean last year! It wasnt a bad year i must admit and i am truly thankful for that! Although i am glad to see the back of christmas for another year! Who isint? The day itself was fine! We had a really nice day, we slept late lol and then got up and opened our presents and just had some time to ourselves which was nice, it was our first christmas living together! Anyway we went to my mums first and then my sister and her husband came and we went to theirs for dinner! It was really nice she put a lot of effort it for us coming and i could really see that! We did end up staying the night, not before we got through a lot of booze and laughs! It was a really good night and i am glad that we did stay even though her husband and i dont really get on! It was great! On new years eve we had a night planned of it, we were going for a meal and then walk through the city of party goers ending up at his dads to ring in the new year but... Thu, 04 Jan 2007 10:03:05 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/New-year-New-start/31/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/New-year-New-start/31/ Well today is my last day at work, im taking a few weeks off so that i can get the flat sorted! Cannot believe this is my last day before christmas! I still have a few things to get lol Had a really bad day yesterday and the blogigo server was down according to my laptop! Worst day i think iv had! I just told everyone that i was taking myself off on christmas eve and that i wasnt coming back until the new year, that way i would skip all the hassle and i could be by myself which is just what i wanted to do! Even the bf was worried about me!! I am so lucky to have such a great family, we had a chat and i had a chat with the bf and we sorted a few things out! I was just sick of being miserable all the time and feeling unhappy and i dont normally feel that way and i knew that i hated it! Feeling a bit better today though after we had a chat the bf and i had a quiet night we didnt talk much and i was glad we actually had a quiet night in without an argument and if i could feel there was one... Thu, 21 Dec 2006 09:38:14 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/Last-day/30/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/Last-day/30/ I really am feeling that cold this morning, i cannot see a foot in front of myself! The fog is so thick! Took most of my decorations down last night, i am just sick of arguing with him over christmas and i know he didnt even want me to do make the house look cosy and christmassy he kept saying it was like living with an adult sized child! So i wripped everything down and had to go a walk! It was freezing but i jsut wanted to get my head cleared! I think iv decided what to do! This is goin to be my most miserable christmas and i cant wait until its over, so when it is and whenever we get into the new flat, ill sign everything over to him and move back to my mums! As soon as i know he will be ok and he has everything he needs im just gonna move back cos i am just sick of fighting and everything i say to him is going in one ear and out the other! No matter what i say its like the only person he listens to is himself and what goes on in his own head! So i have had enough, last night we were lying in bed... Tue, 19 Dec 2006 09:21:05 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/cant-even-see-infront-of-me/29/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/cant-even-see-infront-of-me/29/ Yes another bloody crisis and this is christmas week!! We have run out of oil! So no heating over christmas lol hilarious i thought! There is not much point in us putting in oil if we are moving out after christmas and wont get to use it all up is there?!?! So what can we do? Hmmmm well last night we just cuddled on the sofa with blankets and a small heater, lol luckily enough it was fine and there have been colder snaps, i just hope that by the end of the week its not sub zero tempratures becauase then that will be a nightmare! Didnt have a bad weekend considering we were shivering!! Well the heating only went off on sunday morning so it wasnt that bad, very quiet, which is fine by me!! Still cant wait until the whole christmas thing is over and i am sure that i am not the only one! Just want to get moved into the new flat and start the new year with a clean slate! This is was actually quite quiet compared to last year and i liked it! Hopefully the new year will be just as quiet! Must look for a new... Mon, 18 Dec 2006 09:28:56 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/Another-bloomin-crisis/28/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/Another-bloomin-crisis/28/ Its so close to christmas now i am actually getting scared! i must go into the city this weekend and try and finish my shopping! Although not sure how i am going to do that without much money lol Hopefully it wont be too hard! I have tomorrow off so i might try and start my shopping then! My sister is giving us a christmas tree, i wasnt going to put anyhting up as we are moving just after christmas but its fiboroptic so i wont have to dress it or anything! I am glad cos i think i would have missed a tree this year! I cant wait to move into our new flat and get everythign in it the way i want it, i already know what colour schemes i am going for! I think it will turn out really nice! People have already started getting us stuff for the flat which is really nice of them! I still have to write out my christmas cards so i might do that tonight also, ooooh someone wants to come and view our house this friday morning, cant believe its so soon! People must be really keen to view it! I have to ring... Thu, 14 Dec 2006 11:02:01 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/Where-has-time-gone/27/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/Where-has-time-gone/27/ What a start to the day! Its weather for ducks out there! I dont even have that far to walk to work but there was no way i was walking this morning! Had a relaxing night last night we hardly spoke of christmas and watched a dvds and snuggled up on the sofa! Think we needed it! Everything was fine until my alarm went this morning and he wanted me to stay in bed an extra 5 mins and i seriously could not afford too! Like i told him if i thought i could get an extra 5 minutes in bed then i certantly would! Well at least he was annoyed i was leaving rather than being there at all which sometimes i do have to wonder about! I have to run some errands this morning! I thought i had almost everyone in i needed to get for but then i sent me cousin an e-mail and i started naming the people i still had to get for and theres more than i thought which i kind of scared me a little lol i actually thought i had almost everyones present but then i thought i actually dont! I have my nieces and most of my bfs but i have... Wed, 13 Dec 2006 09:12:53 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/weather-for-ducks/26/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/weather-for-ducks/26/ Oh how i wish that christmas was over, its not that i am a depressing person! This year has just got me depressed and i know there will be plenty of tears before this year is over take it from me! I hate upsetting people and i just wish that everyone could get along! That is a dream world though, because no matter who you are you always know someone who wont be having a good christmas and you cannot stop it, is there really a point in feeling bad about that? i cannot help it! I feel drained and emotional today, everything is starting to take its toll and im starting to stop caring! I mean about christmas, and presnets and dinner, the OH said that he would be happy to sit at home and eat a ready meal (oh v dramatic) lol which i told him was NEVER going to happen, but today i kind of agree with him and it would make so much more things a lot easier! I am still deeply missing my phone, i know that sounds really selfish especially this time of year when so many people go with out the essentials never mind... Tue, 12 Dec 2006 10:06:19 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/wish-upon/25/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/wish-upon/25/ Well its the start of the week again! and Things are definately not better! The bf and i are fine, well fine as we can b i suppose! The thing is we went to my sisters last night for some dinner and we made a night of it, there was lots of wine and baileys! i was up for work this morning so no matter how much i drank something was telling me to stay sober! Although my sister got completely drunk! Shes such a happy drunk lol their christmas tree is massive, it takes up most of the room! We had such a good night and i wsa really looking forward to christmas dinner and i thought the bf would be too but when we got home last night he told me that whenever my sister and i went out for a cigarette break her husband was back stabbing my family and really firing some awkward questions at him! Now he has done this before but not for a long time, and i just dont know what hes thinking because he knows that i am going to cancel going to theirs for christmas now and its going to upset my sister, she was really... Mon, 11 Dec 2006 09:18:34 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/Can-things-actually-get-worse/24/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/Can-things-actually-get-worse/24/ My phone is broken! I accidently dropped it into a glass of juice last night and its died! i am in deep mourning! Seriously i really dont know what to do i know that its not like i have just lost a relative but i pracitally had my whole life on that phone and now its just gone! I even had pictures of our new flat in it! We're moving in as soon as we can actually! I was very upset last night when ever that happened my phone, i was in just a good mood the whole because we got the flat and the keys and everything was great and then that had to happen, then we had another argument! and i left, didnt have anywhere to go so i walked about in the rain not that the other half cared by the time i got back he was asleep, cant say i am that surprised to be honest, although everything was my fault and blah blah! Not that it matters that he threw me out in the street in the rain! I am at my parents, i walked out this morning i had enough! I just dont know how to feel, i mean i wouldnt do that on a stray dog!... Sat, 09 Dec 2006 16:38:32 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/Broken/23/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/Broken/23/ Had a very quiet night last night, we hardly spoke a few words to each other and if we did we were snapping! We are going to view a new flat tomorrow morning and i hope it cheers us both up, well not really me because i love christmas and i am usually quite happy the whole month of december but this year i just get the feeling that he is ruining things and turning into a right miserable so and so! I can be miserable but this is the one time of the year when i am at my happiest, i love the rush of getting presents in, thinking about what i get people, hoping they will like it, putting a tree up seeing old frinds etc etc being with family! This time of year can really bring the best of the worst out in people i could be standing in a shop when this excuse for a man whacks into my because the book he wants to buy is fast selling out or i could get some old woman beating me with her umberella if i lift the last loaf of bread (i didnt think it had her name on it) then you can also see great generosity from... Thu, 07 Dec 2006 10:44:17 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/Dont-know-what-to-do/22/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/Dont-know-what-to-do/22/ Why does christmas turn normal decent people into maniacs?!? I mean its only one day and too be honest i was quite looking forward to it this year but i am just about sick of it all! My sister and her hub have invited us down for christmas dinner and its going to be lovely and stuff and they want us to stay over that night so that the hub can have a drink and we dont have to worry about anything but the other halfs kicking up a stink because he wants to come back to his own place on christmas night, i have always been used to be around people at christmas and to think of the 2 of us coming home alone and watchin telly alone kind of depresses me and he cant really understand that! He just wants to come back to his own place and watch his own telly (which is tiny seeing as our big 1 broke down last night grrrr) and yes i understand that but its christmas!!! His family are also kicking up becuase he isint going to be there for dinner well they arnt really just his mad sister! he doesnt want to go there but... Wed, 06 Dec 2006 09:29:48 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/What-a-fuss/21/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/What-a-fuss/21/ Dont you just hate not being able to please everyone?! its the start of the week again, i cant believe its went in so fast! We didnt even do that much apart from attend my nieces birthday party! It was good fun and everyone ate too much as usual! Didnt get out just the two of us though, were saving the pennies for christmas, like everyone else although i do get a little bit jealous when i see people going out for their dinner and having a nice night, i think well they must be comfortable enuf to eat out everyweekend and probably get eachother cool christmas gifts lol iv already got part his in! anyway must dash! Mon, 04 Dec 2006 11:55:06 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/feeling-chilly/20/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/feeling-chilly/20/ Well its friday again and i for one am really glad its that time of the week! Wireless network decided to break down on me this morning and i really thought i was going to have a break down after so much work i put into it yesterday, i had a little breakfast break and a cigarette and i decided that this time i would fix it once and for all! So finally got it fixed weather or not it will still work tomorrow is a different story though!Heres hoping! I wont worry about it though, i have officaly started my christmas shopping, online, but i am going shopping in the city centre tonight and im hoping to get almost everyones because i am sick of worrying about money! I am sure everyone is at this time of the year! I will need a little powernap before i do anything though because if i want to go vigarous christmas shopping tonight and then partying i need a nap otherwise ill keel over, i really dont know where i am getting the time for a nap though! Maybe half an hour will do me! I was up at 7am this morning and... Fri, 01 Dec 2006 14:53:54 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/FRIDAY-AGAIN/19/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/FRIDAY-AGAIN/19/ I didnt really think that i wouldbe back on to continue my blog! I had just given up hope off ver getting my wireless connection back again, but bought a new router and then spent the most of yesterday trying to get our heads around it! I lost my temper and ended up ringing the shop where we bought it and they told us that someone would have to call out which would cost £25! That didnt excactly cheery me up, so this morning when i had some time to myself i prepared myself for a long wait as i watied on the repair guy i managed around 30 minutes before i was on the pc myself trying to fix it again like before i was getting more and more frustrated, then i clicked a few tabs and input a few numbers which i rememberd from the last time i was setting up wireless and just as i was giving up i clicked and hey presto the page opened up! id finally got it myself so i phoned the repair guy to let him know he wasnt needed today! So now were working without any problems its great, with our last provider it was... Thu, 30 Nov 2006 15:15:14 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/Finally-got-my-internet-back/18/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/Finally-got-my-internet-back/18/ Feels like i havnt been on in ages! Well first things are first, i didnt have nay broadband and i swear that i felt like i had lost somehting! i felt totally lost without broadband! Everything was cancelled and then we got a new provider and it seems to be working fine now! Although i have to go out and buy a new wireless router for my laptop then ill be fine! Cant stand using the same computer as other people, im quite private! yeh right i have a blog on the internet! no seriously though i am and i have my own personal laptop that noone else uses and thats fine by me! Anyway things are OK at the mo! had a bit of a bad week emotions running high constant bickering! i spent most of yesterday in the bathroom sobbing! I just want this weekend to go without any hitches, it seems that its the same story everytime it comes up to the weekend! Things have got to change soon, im loosing patience and i hate feeling like this! anyway i just hope that i will be off tomorrow but if not no doubt ill b on here ranting... Thu, 23 Nov 2006 11:38:49 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/its-bin-a-while/17/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/its-bin-a-while/17/ Well, that weekend was good! We had a quiet and peaceful weekend! That was until last night! We spent most of the weekend just the two of us, chilling and being together and it was nice! So last night we treated ourselves to an italian! Just the two of us! It was really nice and then by the end of the night we were tired and just wanted to cuddle on the sofa! I dont even think we had turned the TV on when i was sitting taking my boots of and the other half started screaming my name in total fear and he was pointing behind me, well i didnt help i leaped to my feet and didnt look behind me and i just clung to him he eventually calmed down enuf to tell me he had just seen a mouse heading from behind one of the chairs into the kitchen! Well i actually thought i was going to bring my dinner back up! The rest of the night we had to accompany eachother everywhere and luckily weve been together so long now were that comfortable lol Anyway neither of us were any use and he was actaully taking it worse than me... Mon, 13 Nov 2006 09:34:00 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/Monday/16/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/Monday/16/ Well i have to say that i am so glad that its friday! It feels strange to be working today but not really much of a difference although any other friday id still be tucked up in bed snoring! Actually i wasnt in a good sleep for very long anyway we had yobs at the corner last night (we're corner house) and they were drunk and from about 12:30am-2:00am they stood and laughed and shouted and chanted and i was starting to fume! considering i was up at 7am, the other half wanted to go out but there was up to 6 of them and i think that would have made matters worse, even if your nice to them it doesnt matter! Anyway i just didnt know what to do so i phoned the cops, not a lot of good that did! They told me i would have to ring noise pollution which i didnt have the number and neither did they!!!! Eventually i think the yobs got bored and kind of melted into the ground lol i wish! 1 minute i was listening to how tough they are the next i actually heard from mutter he was "freezing" yeh tough guys!... Fri, 10 Nov 2006 08:55:00 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/TFI-FRIDAY/15/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/Belfast_today/TFI-FRIDAY/15/