Last day
Mood: tired, giddy
Well today is my last day at work, im taking a few weeks off so that i can get the flat sorted! Cannot believe this is my last day before christmas! I still have a few things to get lol
Had a really bad day yesterday and the blogigo server was down according to my laptop! Worst day i think iv had! I just told everyone that i was taking myself off on christmas eve and that i wasnt coming back until the new year, that way i would skip all the hassle and i could be by myself which is just what i wanted to do! Even the bf was worried about me!! I am so lucky to have such a great family, we had a chat and i had a chat with the bf and we sorted a few things out! I was just sick of being miserable all the time and feeling unhappy and i dont normally feel that way and i knew that i hated it! Feeling a bit better today though after we had a chat the bf and i had a quiet night we didnt talk much and i was glad we actually had a quiet night in without an argument and if i could feel there was one brewing i diverted it which is what i should do in future! I was just sick of the arguments and i was starting to feel really miserable in myself, i even wanted to take our christmas tree down! We're so cold with having no oil and heating but that wasnt really bothering me, it was just feeling coldness in my heart and i hated that feeling! i hated the numb feeling i had towards everything and i just wanted to sleep! I am glad we had a chat and that i am feeling alittle bit better today! I still want to get christmas over and done with although i am looking forward to the actual day when i get to see my little nieces and we go to my sisters for a huge feed! The bf is actually looking forward to it as long as i can get my brother in law stinking drunk lol When my sister phoned yesterday to see if we were keeping warm i just told her that we wernt going and that i didnt care what the bf was doing and she got really upset ( shes very caring and hates someone suffering or in pain) when i told her how i felt!
I am in a better mood today and i slept better last night after about an hour of lying there worrying about last minute things i have to get! But i am not grumpy about that, i enjoy getting last minute things, i hate the crowds but i dont mind knowing its that time of year and the things that i am getting are the last things i will have to ger for anyone! Still have to get the bf a last minute surprise and i have to get my parents, but apart from that thats everything i think lol!
I definately dont feel as stressed as i did over the past few weeks, a friend is coming for a christmas drink to our house tonight and i am looking forward to the catch up shes had a really bad year herself and her probs a lot worse than mine! I should be lucky i havnt had the year that she has had! We should have a good night though we normally do when were together! Must go and make my breakfast, i just hope i am not on here again in the next few days before christmas bawling my eyes out because something else has happened or i am feeling bad again! Fingers crossed!
Merry Christmas, Happy new year! Have a really great one!
