Can things actually get worse?
Mood: hopeless
Listening to: too many voices in my head!
Well its the start of the week again! and Things are definately not better! The bf and i are fine, well fine as we can b i suppose! The thing is we went to my sisters last night for some dinner and we made a night of it, there was lots of wine and baileys! i was up for work this morning so no matter how much i drank something was telling me to stay sober! Although my sister got completely drunk! Shes such a happy drunk lol their christmas tree is massive, it takes up most of the room! We had such a good night and i wsa really looking forward to christmas dinner and i thought the bf would be too but when we got home last night he told me that whenever my sister and i went out for a cigarette break her husband was back stabbing my family and really firing some awkward questions at him! Now he has done this before but not for a long time, and i just dont know what hes thinking because he knows that i am going to cancel going to theirs for christmas now and its going to upset my sister, she was really looking forward to christmas with us, but i have to cancel, i dont want my bf being put on the spot like that andnot being able to relax on christmas day! I just dont know what to do now, or what to tell my sister! In the end the weekend turned out to be ok on saturday night the bfs younger brother came up and we sat talking until 3am, and then last night we went to theirs and we had such a good night, well i thought we did! i just want christmas to be over and i just want to take myself off somewere quiet and peaceful and alone!
