Belfast today

Listening to: my paranoia!

I didnt really think that i wouldbe back on to continue my blog! I had just given up hope off ver getting my wireless connection back again, but bought a new router and then spent the most of yesterday trying to get our heads around it! I lost my temper and ended up ringing the shop where we bought it and they told us that someone would have to call out which would cost £25! That didnt excactly cheery me up, so this morning when i had some time to myself i prepared myself for a long wait as i watied on the repair guy i managed around 30 minutes before i was on the pc myself trying to fix it again like before i was getting more and more frustrated, then i clicked a few tabs and input a few numbers which i rememberd from the last time i was setting up wireless and just as i was giving up i clicked and hey presto the page opened up! id finally got it myself so i phoned the repair guy to let him know he wasnt needed today! So now were working without any problems its great, with our last provider it was always going off! Anyway thats the reason why i havnt been writing my blog i havnt had any internet access and its been driving my crazy! Not much news with me anyway lol quite boring! Although i think i might be moving house next week or whatever and im dreading christmas shopping because i am absolutely pennyless! Oh well must run! Lets hope we have a great weekend!

Mood: hoping im off tomorrow

Mood: tired and thoughtful

Well, that weekend was good! We had a quiet and peaceful weekend! That was until last night! We spent most of the weekend just the two of us, chilling and being together and it was nice! So last night we treated ourselves to an italian! Just the two of us! It was really nice and then by the end of the night we were tired and just wanted to cuddle on the sofa! I dont even think we had turned the TV on when i was sitting taking my boots of and the other half started screaming my name in total fear and he was pointing behind me, well i didnt help i leaped to my feet and didnt look behind me and i just clung to him he eventually calmed down enuf to tell me he had just seen a mouse heading from behind one of the chairs into the kitchen! Well i actually thought i was going to bring my dinner back up! The rest of the night we had to accompany eachother everywhere and luckily weve been together so long now were that comfortable lol Anyway neither of us were any use and he was actaully taking it worse than me and i didnt think that was possible! So i had to phone my dad who thought it was hilarious along with the rest of my family! Anyway long story short he put down special glue and we slopped off to bed hoping it would get caught during the night, but i couldnt sleep! i felt bad and i thought that glue was so cruel! anyway the mouse was caught and i got upset cos it was struggeling then went back to bed but couldnt sleep so again so got up and checked on the mouse, it had vanished!!!! No trace what so ever! I dont know weather i was relieved or angry! a bit of both i think! So i was actually glad to be leaving this morning! there is still some glue left in one place so it might pick the mouse up! Would really freak if its not caught by tonight, i dont think i could sleep! Anyway after such a nice weekend heres hoping we have a peaceful non eventful week, although i must say it hasnt really started off that way!!

Mood: much beta than before!
Listening to: my liver telling me its V thrusday :-)

Well i have to say that i am so glad that its friday! It feels strange to be working today but not really much of a difference although any other friday id still be tucked up in bed snoring! Actually i wasnt in a good sleep for very long anyway we had yobs at the corner last night (we're corner house) and they were drunk and from about 12:30am-2:00am they stood and laughed and shouted and chanted and i was starting to fume! considering i was up at 7am, the other half wanted to go out but there was up to 6 of them and i think that would have made matters worse, even if your nice to them it doesnt matter! Anyway i just didnt know what to do so i phoned the cops, not a lot of good that did! They told me i would have to ring noise pollution which i didnt have the number and neither did they!!!! Eventually i think the yobs got bored and kind of melted into the ground lol i wish! 1 minute i was listening to how tough they are the next i actually heard from mutter he was "freezing" yeh tough guys! Anyway considering i didnt get a lot of sleep i am feeling better today and i am not going to let anything annoy me this weekend! And its just gona b me and him this weekend, noones coming up! Even if his younger brother rings and says hes just around the corner then im sorry but hes being told we're not in! We also ran out of oil! So we have to spend tonight watching our breath! Oh well we can get it in tomorrow! Anyway heres hoping we have a gr8 weekend!

Mood: indifferent

I will be glad when this week is over! What a crap week! Been in the worst form since last weekend! Sometimes i dont know how to feel about anything and my head just feels like there are so many things swimming in it! 1 minute im feeling OK and the next im crying into my breakfast, and its not woman troubles! It could be i guess, if you think womens hormones are always up the left but thats not usually me! I am quite stable most of the time but i really dont know what has happened to me this week! Its like iv been constantly angry and im thinking about things and im stewing over them for hours and then i explode but today i have vowed to stay quiet no matter what cos what ever i say i get into trouble or it comes out wrong and i end up looking like iv bit someones head off! I just hate the feeling of being lonely and having noone to talk to at all! I hope next week is much better! This has been a really strange week!  

Mood: fed up
Listening to: the pain in my head!

Not feeling all that better for falling down the stairs yet, i was off work yesterday and i got as much rest as i could! Although myself and the other half went to casualty last night and we were there from 4pm-8pm and we still had not been seen so, we hadnt eaten and we were getting tired and grumpy so instead of yet another argument i left! Head still sore and my toe/ankles still sore! Although i doubt anythings broken! Still feel terrible! All i get from him is a lecture about what happened and thats all, i feel like he couldnt care less and sometimes i really dont think he does! Only about himself! I just dont get that he likes doing anything that is selfless! espcially for me! No he hasnt been caring at all since it happened, last night he actually asked me to go to the shop for him, after getting in from A&E! I just dont know what to do anymore! Feel so low today! Although if i mention it to him ill be told im not helping myself by thinking about it! Anyway i am working until friday this week hopefully ill feel better any day now!

Mood: in pain
Listening to: my pain

Well its monday and i write in red becuase of my pain! I fell down the stairs on saturday night, and yes it was alcohol related! i admit it! Think iv broken a toe!  Apart from that the weekend was fine although yesterday is a blur, i could have slept the whole day but my boyfriend didnt let me although he did let me lie on the sofa all day while he looked after me and then took me for a bite to eat when i was feeling better but i couldnt really eat anything! iv a huge bump on my noggin and i thot i cracked my skull even last night going to sleep wasnt easy, i had been so drowsy the whole day i was really tired when i went to bed but every time i went into a sleep i woke myself up again worrying i was going to die! Insane i know! I am off work tomorrow and i cannot wait! I could have taken today off but didnt think there was a point as i am off tomorrow anyway so i can rest then, and if i want to i can get out early! Even typing is sore! Anyway at least i am not dead! i could have really done serious damage on saturday night and believe me i know that, iv had my entire family tell me that! Anyway lets hope everythings ok soon!

Mood: Dreading the docs
Listening to: my niece singing

Bit warmer this friday, the heating was on when i arrived! lol Dont usually work on a friday but i was off most of this week so cant complain! Heading to the docs soon have a few aches and pains! (im only 21) Sometimes i feel 81 to be honest! Had the strangest dream about an ex last night, it was very strange considering i havnt seen him in years and when we were together i didnt love him or really fancy him actually it was more of a 1 night stand on holiday! but hes a family friend who lives in another part of northern ireland! It was really strange and i made myself late for work this morning going over and over it.  I just hope its not a sign that im going to dump into him over this weekend or something like that! Anyway think weve just gotten over our break in ordeal over the halloween lol Oh well at least it gave us osmething to talk about! Anyway lets hope we all have a good weekend!

Mood: tired!
Listening to: shivering

Well, thats halloween out of the way! Now all i have to worry about is Christmas! The shear thought of it makes me want to run into a corner and hide and weep! Had a really great halloween, had cousin down with her bf and we had a really good night, until some maniac tried to break into our house with everyone sitting in the living room! That was so scary! Luckily the drunken dickhead came to his senses when he realised i was on the phone to the police, who surprisingly arrived pretty quickly although dont think it was much use and i told the officer that! Wow its so cold today, i am shivvering typing this! I think the winter has arrived! Cant stop thinking about my warm cosy bed at home! Urgh! Shiver! Working tomorrow too, i just wish it was tomorrow evening and i was lying cuddled on the sofa with the other half, although were not really that cuddly its more like a fight over who gets the sofa or the blanket lol Anyway i have to go and warm myself up!