Mid week
Mood: Tired again
Listening to: the song in my head, its been there since i woke!
Didnt have a good night sleep again! im sure that people who read this, if any are sick of me saying im tired! Yeh i am sick of being tired. Dont know what to do! Feeling really tired and emotional today, wish it was the weekend already. Lol i am sure that i am not the only one who thinks that! Would love to get away on holiday somewhere, the last place we were was in dublin the day after boxing day, we came home on new years eve although just barely! We had probs with our taxi driver who was taking us to the bus stop to get our bus back to belfast and 1 thing led to another and we ended up walking 3 miles and being there 3 minutes before the last bus took off at 9pm! So that was lucky, at least we didnt spend new years eve in a bus station! Although the boyfriend said he might have well have! He loves dublin and had a face on the whole way back to belfast because we had to leave, we had to, we didnt have any money let alone alcohol left lol i was never so glad to see the welcome to belfast sign as i was that night, i think my bf had tears in his eyes with the sight of belfast lol i dont mind belfast its were i grew up and even though he grew up in belfast also he loves to slate it and say how crap it is, and i dont know why but i feel the urge to stick up for it! Not right now though nothing would hold me back from some sun if i had the money! He goes on about gettin away and where we would go and to be honest i hate him talking that way because we are so skint we couldnt afford a day trip to the beach and i have to remind him that we are not getting away anytime soon would he please stop talking about it because its really starting to get to me! I just wish he would appreicate what we have at the minute! We dont have a lot compared to some people but i suppose we do have a lot compared to others! Anyay iv had a little rant and feel better lol Anyone got a spare holiday going?!?!? lol Its coming into winter and were in belfast, itd be great to get away for a few days even but i know its not going to happen so i try not to think about it! Even if i do have it shoved into my face! 
i am ofcourse being sarcastic! i sounded like i was complaining about the it being so quiet, which i am not! I love it peaceful! Although last night we were in bed and i heard this laughter and boysterious banter when i looked out the window expecting to see some teens i was surprised to see 2 middle aged men and a middle aged woman, the woman was stinking drunk and she kept drivelling on about how hard it is for women and dont get me wrong i am all for feminitiy but she was with 2 middle aged men and i just thought, listen to yourself your fighting a loosing battle here doll! The younger of the men started getting fed up and bored i think and kept trying to get away telling the woman the time and then saying goodnight over and over! Eventually they left and i was hoping for a good nights sleep until my boyfriend started with his constant fidgeting and grunting about the heat and then grunting about his bloated tummy, we had been for an indian last night and i was fine, but he had many trips to the loo! I was up at 7am for work where as he could lie in until about 11am! By 3am i had crossed over to psychotic and was planning his murder! Luckily some stern words and lots of yelling done the trick and i was drifting into a sleep! I was awake at 6:30 though cos he felt the urge again! I know it wasnt his fault so this afternoon when i called him i didnt get too heavy on his case! I feel like a zombie though, i know we're trying to get fit and blah bloody blah but the thot of going home to cook a meal and go for a brisk walk kind of makes me feel sick! So he can buy me a low fat ready meal and that will do me fine! Too tired to eat! Hopefully tonights bedtime routine goes more smoothly than last nights did because if i get another night with hardly any sleep then there will be bloodshed from either him or me! lol oooh im verging on psychotic again! joking! Anyway I better get back to work! Looking forward to halloween! Spooky OoOoOoOoO! 
So glad i am not in work tomorrow and i can catch up on my sleep, iv been loosing some sleep recently and i think its getting to me. Anyway fingers crossed its a good weekend i think we al deserve good weekends!
