Family Girl

Mood: befuddled

I don't quite understand the male species.  I mean what do they want? Sex? Personality? Good looks?  What?  Why would a guy let it get back to me that he likes me, know that I like him, post on his journal that he wants to date me possibly, and then not date me?  He just suddenly decided he doesn't want a relaitonship.  Does this mean he doesn't want one with me, or just in general?  I know he has a lot going on in his life right now, and he says that he likes me still, just can't doesn't want to pull me into his problems right at the start of our relationship, but how do I know if what he says is legit?  I mean I want to trust him, and I do really believe what he says, but am I being duped by believing him?  I hope not.  I mean I like the guy, but if it turns out he just doesn't want to date me, then I'll be fine. I would prefer if he would date me since I do like him, but if he doesn't then that's fine, I just want to know so I know.  Grr. Whatever I guess it doesn't matter, but considering this would be my first official relationship, it kind of does to me, even if it is petty.

Mood: Sad and angry

A 13 month old baby.  Why?  Why does a baby deserve to die at the hands of his father?  A man who goes to my church, father of 3, from a small community near mine, decides to drown his baby in a bath tub.  It's just so sad and twisted.  Healthy babies shouldn't die.  This man was 34 years old and he has now signed his life away to prison leaving his grieving wife with 2 young children, a dead son, and a locked up husband.  The man called 911 after he laid his dead son down on the bed and told the operator that he had drowned his son.  No remorse, just "my son isn't breathing, I drowned him in the bathtub."  It sickens me and saddens me.  What could the child have done to warrant such an action from his seemingly loving father, cry?

I don't know it just makes me sick.