Sun set...
09 January 2005
Its a rainy morning, i'm gonna start working tonight at 11pm till the next day at 7am long john silver, somerset. This few days back has been days of setback for me. I realise that i was too careless in caring for ppl and all i ever had in mind was to do wad is best for her but she thought otherwise and worst, she hate the stuff i did for her which made me kinda sad. I didnt know that she hates it till recently i asked her myself and all that i ever did for her seems to be trash thats so unwanted and harmful. She don't know how hard i fought for her this while even when she was about to drop to Normal i'm gonna make sure she wouldnt and it seems that she hates it and have me said to being so over possesive ... maybe i cared for her too much and she just hate? afterall all i did was for her own good and i'm very definite its for her own good even if she is to disagree and to have it battle out i'm still standing my ground. but all effort is now just uncountable mistakes and i'll stop doing things for her sake coz it'll only be mistakes after mistakes and nothing good, a friend not worth to befriend her. Now that i've thought i apologised for caring for people is very unreasonable and sad stuff, kena ignored is another thing. i'll withdraw myself sigh....
